"That is very strange, too," he accepted her lead, after contemplating
it for a time. "It is always the one who can't trust his compass who
loses his head, once he knows he's mixed up. Big Louie was that way.
He was lost once, for two days, before we found him; he was half mad
with terror and pretty near dead with fatigue. He had been running in
a big circle for hours, and we had to corner him before he would see
that we were friends. He'd been listening to the night noises, you
see; dwelling on the blackness and the silence and his lack of a fire,
until his brain was no longer any use to him."
"What should one do?" she asked him faintly, when she knew that he was
waiting for her to speak. Yet his answer persisted in adding to that
word-image which his mind was molding.
"Quit letting yourself look back over your shoulder, to see if anything
is following you!" He was suddenly gruff, and she knew that he was
talking at himself. "Quit dwelling on the crackle in the brush, and
the darkness, and the things you are afraid to fear. The wise man
stops when he knows he's lost his bearings; he busies himself
collecting wood for a fire, if not to keep the chill from his body by
exercise, then because it keeps his mind off himself. And he sleeps if
he can. Anyhow he lies quiet and rests. And when morning comes he
uses his reason better for having rested, if his instincts still play
him false. He has a look at the stars before daybreak; he watches the
sun come up, and he holds a straight line by the height of land, or by
the river flow, and he hits familiar country soon."
This time the girl did not interrupt him. She was watching his face.
"And that doesn't apply just to one little corner of the woods, or one
little corner of life, either, does it?" he mused. "When a man's
instinct fails him, he can stop and get his bearings back; when he's
afraid he can kindle a fire within him, always, if he'll only rustle
around before it gets too dark to search for fuel. But at that it
isn't so very easy, in life, to get one's bearings straight again.
It's stormy, some nights, maybe, and the stars don't shine; sometimes
day dawns cloudy and the sun is not advertising its location too
strongly. Instinct has always been strong in me, but there have been
times, too, when I have had to hold my eyes mighty steady on some
object far beyond me, to keep my line dead straight." He stopped short
and faced her. "You would be afraid, yes," he told her, "but you would
try hard to discipline yourself. You would never go rushing blindly
into a worse tangle, spending your strength and breaking your sanity
down. Big Louie is a child; discipline is wasted on him. And--and I
have always been able to find my way myself."
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