"It is too bad," he said slowly. "I have been sorrier for him myself,
since his going, than I've been over anything for years. I do not know
just why, but I'm afraid for him. The others--" He stopped there,
catching himself before he had said too much. "I could always tell Big
Louie how I wanted a thing done, and know without one little bit of
doubt that he would stick to my orders. But that is the trouble with
his kind. Because he has no initiative of his own, he has to depend
upon the ideas which other men supply him. And there is no guarantee
whether they will be good or bad ideas."
From the first he talked fitfully that night. On other occasions she
had noticed how his mind seemed to veer, whimsically, from one topic to
another with little apparent continuity of thought, only to swing back
again, just when she was beginning to feel that she had lost the thread
of inference, to point his argument with parallels that were new and
delightful wisdoms to her ears. But to-night his grave-voiced
divergences, oftener than not, left her thoughts behind his thoughts.
"It is a very easy country to get lost in," he next remarked, when he
had had to insist that his sense of direction, and not hers, should be
the one to be trusted. "He was never able to go fifty rods into the
brush himself, without getting completely turned around, and he was
born in these hills, at that."
Then he had to tell her that it was Big Louie to whom he was referring,
before she understood quite what he meant. But he abandoned that
trend, freakishly, the very next moment.
"It doesn't seem complicated," he pondered. "To a man who has come
into the world with his sense of north and south and east and west all
safely relegated to his backbone instead of having to depend upon the
flighty functions of his brain for his guide, it's about the simplest
thing there is. He finds his way without thinking about the lay of the
land, or moss on the trees, or the sun or stars. But the other
one--the one who has to stop and reason that he must travel so many
miles to the west to reach home in the afternoon, because he came that
many in the morning--why, he even gets to doubting his compass, until
night catches him without a roof over his head and no wood collected
for a camp-fire."
Long before then she had learned how sensitive a thing was his
spirit--and she wanted him to go on.
"It must be a terrible thing to--to know that one is lost." Her hands
were buried deep in her pockets; she found it hard to keep pace with
his stride. "I am always afraid of the night noises in the woods."
It was the girl in her which had spoken at which he smiled, but his
smile was absent-minded.
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