Christian fiction; Wingfold, Thomas (Fictitious character) -- Fiction
their misty folds.
His uncle and aunt received him with more warmth than he had ever known
them show. They were in good spirits about him, for they had all the
time been receiving news of him and Barbara, with not a word of Alice,
from old Simon. Jane's heart swelled with the ambition that her boy
should as a working-man gain the love of a well born girl, and reward
her by making her _my lady_.
I do not think Mrs. Tuke could have loved a son of her own body more
than this son of her sister; but she was constantly haunted with a vague
uneasiness about the possible consequences to herself and her husband
of what she had done, and the obstacles that might rise to prevent his
restoration; and this uneasiness had its share both in repressing the
show of her love, and in making her go to church so regularly. Her
pleasure in going was not great, but she was not the less troubled that
Richard did not care about going. She was still in the land of bullocks
and goats; she went to church with the idea that she was doing something
for God in going. It is always the way. Until a man knows God, he seeks
to obey him by doing things he neither commands nor cares about; while
the things for the sake of which he sent his son, the man regards as of
little or no consequence. What the son says about them, he takes as a
matter of course for him to say, and for himself to neglect.
Mrs. Tuke noted, the next day, that, as often almost as he was still,
a shadow settled on Richard's face, and he looked lost and sad: but it
only occurred to her that of course he must miss Barbara, never that
he cherished no hope such as she would have counted hope. She took it
almost as an omen of final success when in the evening he asked her if
she would not like him to go to church with her. He felt as if in church
he would be nearer Barbara, for he knew that now she went often. But
alas, while there he sat, he felt himself drifting farther and farther
from her! The foolish utterances of the parson made him deeply regret
that he had gone. While he believed, or at least was willing to believe,
that they misrepresented Christianity, they awoke all his old feelings
of instinctive repulsion, and overclouded his discrimination. Almost as
little could he endure the unnature as the untruth of what he heard. It
had no ring of reality, no spark of divine fire, no appealing radiance
of common sense, little of any verity at all. There was in it, as nearly
as possible, nothing at all to mediate between mind and mind, between
truth and belief, between God and his children. The clergyman was not a
hypocrite--far from it! He was in some measure even a devout man. But in
his whole presentation of God and our relation to him, there was neither
thought nor phrase germane to sunrise or sunset, to the firmament or the
wind or the grass or the trees; nothing that came to the human soul as
having a reality true as that of the world but higher; as holding with
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