This FreedomHutchinson, A. S. M. (Arthur Stuart-Menteth)
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This Freedom
Hutchinson, A. S. M. (Arthur Stuart-Menteth)
Marriage -- Fiction; Women -- Social and moral questions -- Fiction
Incredibly soon, so stealthy swift is time, came this last term of
Rosalie’s at the Sultana’s. Time does not play an open game. It’s of the
cloak and dagger sort. It stalks and pounces. Rosalie was astonished
to think she was leaving; and now the time had come she was sorry to be
going. Not very sorry; very excited; but having just enough regret to
realise, on looking back, that she had been very happy at school and to
realise, actively, happiness in this last term. One knows what it is.
It’s always like that. One always was happy; one so seldom is. Happiness
to be realised needs faint perception of sadness as needs the egg the
touch of salt to manifest its flavour. Flashes of entertainment may
enliven the most wretched of us; but that’s pleasure; that’s not
happiness. One comes to know the only true and ideal happiness is
happiness tinctured with faintest, vaguest hint of tears. It is peace;
and who knows peace that has not come to it through storm, or knoweth
storm ahead, or in storm past hath not lost one that would have shared
this peace?
So that girl’s last term was (in her words) “tremendously jolly.” She
was just eighteen, and she was leaving, and responsive to this the
harness of the school was drawn off her as at the paddock gate the
headstall from a colt. She was out of lessons. She did some teaching of
the younger girls. She was on terms with the mistresses. She had the run
of Keggo’s room.
Such talks in Keggo’s room.... She was out from the cove of childhood;
she was into the bay of youth; breasting towards the sea of womanhood
(that sea that’s sailed by stars and by no chart); and she was
encountering tides that come to young mariners to perplex them and Keggo
could talk about such things with the experience that so enraptures
young mariners and of which young mariners are at the same time so
confidently contemptuous, so superiorly sceptical. Nearer to press the
simile, youth at the feet of experience is as one, experienced, climbing
a mountain with the young thing panting behind. “Go on! Go on!” pants
the growing young thing. “This is ripping. Go on. Show the way. But I
don’t want your hand. I can do it easily by myself--better.” And one
evening while Rosalie stumblingly explained, and eagerly received, and
sceptically doubted, “But look here, Keggo,” she cried, and stopped and
blushed, abashed at her use of the nickname.
Miss Keggs laughed. “Don’t mind, Rosalie. Call me Keggo. I like it. It’s
much more friendly. I’m very fond of you, Rosalie.”
They were by the oil stove, Miss Keggs in her wicker armchair, Rosalie
on the floor, her back propped against Miss Keggs’s knees. One of Miss
Keggs’s hands was on Rosalie’s shoulder and she moved it to touch the
girl’s face. “Are you fond of me, Rosalie?”
Rosalie turned towards her and spoke impulsively. “Oh, awfully--Keggo.”
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