Christian fiction; Wingfold, Thomas (Fictitious character) -- Fiction
As he ended thus, the curate bent over and looked at Leopold. But the
poor boy had not listened to a word he said. Something in his tone had
soothed him, but the moment he ceased, the vein of his grief burst out
bleeding afresh. He clasped his thin hands together, and looked up in an
agony of hopeless appeal to the blue sky, now grown paler as in fear of
the coming cold, though still the air was warm and sweet, and cried,
“Oh! if God would only be good and unmake me, and let darkness cover the
place where once was me! That would be like a good God! All I should be
sorry for then would be, that there was not enough of me left for a dim
flitting Will-o’-the-wisp of praise, ever singing my thankfulness to him
that I was no more.--Yet even then my deed would remain, for I dare not
ask that she should die outright also--that would be to heap wrong upon
wrong. What an awful thing being is! Not even my annihilation could make
up for my crime, or rid it out of the universe.”
“True, Leopold!” said the curate. “Nothing but the burning love of God
can rid sin out of anywhere. But are you not forgetting him who surely
knew what he undertook when he would save the world? No more than you
could have set that sun flaming overhead, with its million-miled billows
and its limitless tempests of fire, can you tell what the love of God
is, or what it can do for you, if only by enlarging your love with the
inrush of itself. Few have such a cry to raise to the Father as you,
such a claim of sin and helplessness to heave up before him, such a
joy even to offer to the great Shepherd who cannot rest while one sheep
strays from his flock, one prodigal haunts the dens of evil and waste.
Cry to him, Leopold, my dear boy. Cry to him again and yet again, for
he himself said that men ought always to pray and not faint, for God did
hear and would answer although he might seem long about it. I think we
shall find one day that nobody, not the poet of widest sweep and most
daring imagination, not the prophet who soars the highest in his ardour
to justify the ways of God to men, not the child when he is most fully
possessed of the angel that in heaven always beholds the face of the
Father of Jesus, has come or could have come within sight of the majesty
of his bestowing upon his children. For did he not, if the story be
true, allow torture itself to invade the very soul’s citadel of his
best beloved, as he went to seek the poor ape of a prodigal, stupidly
grinning amongst his harlots?”
Leopold did not answer, and the shadow lay deep on his face for a while;
but at length it began to thin, and at last a feeble quivering smile
broke through the cloud, and he wept soft tears of refreshing.
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