Christian fiction; Wingfold, Thomas (Fictitious character) -- Fiction
How the terrible time, terrible for its very dulness and insensibility,
passed until it brought the funeral, Helen could not have told. It
seemed to her, as she looked back upon it, a bare blank, yet was the
blank full of a waste weariness of heart. The days were all one, outside
and inside. Her heart was but a lonely narrow bay to the sea of cold
immovable fog that filled the world. No one tried to help, no one indeed
knew her trouble. Everyone took it for grief at the loss of her brother,
while to herself it was the oppression of a life that had not even the
interest of pain. The curate had of course called to inquire after her,
but had not been invited to enter. George had been everywhere with help,
but had no word to speak.
The day of the funeral came, in thin fog and dull cold. The few friends
gathered. The body was borne to the Abbey. The curate received it at the
gate in the name of the church--which takes our children in its arms,
and our bodies into its garden--save indeed where her gardener is some
foolish priest who knows not the heart of his mother, and will pick
and choose among her dead;--the lovely words of the last-first of the
apostles, were read; and earth was given back to earth, to mingle with
the rest of the stuff the great workman works withal. Cold was Helen’s
heart, cold her body, cold her very being. The earth, the air, the mist,
the very light was cold. The past was cold, the future yet colder. She
would have grudged Leopold his lonely rest in the grave, but that she
had not feeling enough even for that. Her life seemed withering away
from her, like an autumn flower in the frosts of winter; and she, as if
she had been but a flower, did not seem to care. What was life worth,
when it had not strength to desire even its own continuance? Heartless
she returned from the grave, careless of George’s mute attentions, not
even scornful of her aunt’s shallow wail over the uncertainty of life
and all things human,--so indifferent to the whole misery that she
walked straight up to the room, hers once more, from which the body had
just been carried, and which, for so many many weary weeks, had been the
centre of loving pain, sometimes agony. Once more she was at peace--but
what a peace!
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account