"Good-bye, my dear Ilyusha, good-bye for ever; we shall
never meet again. Don't look for me, you won't find me. I'm
leaving this unlucky town by the next steamboat; here I have
destroyed my soul for ever. I'm going away, far away, and
shall never come back; don't think of me and don't wait for
me. With all my heart, I thank you for the good you have
brought me, and the bad I will forget. I must tell you the
plain truth. I'm not going into a nunnery, I'm going away
with young Ananyin, who has been entreating me for a long
time. I have agreed at last, what does it matter to me? We
go to the sea to a village where Ananyin has fisheries. He
is simple, and even means to marry me, good, silly boy!
Good-bye! We have met as if in a dream, and when I waked
there was nothing. Forgive me too! If you knew how my
heart burns with longing. I kiss you--you, the one man in
the world for me. Don't be proud before men; we are all
unfortunate. I have grown calm, I, your Lipa, and I go as
though under the axe,--my heart pains me so.----
"OLYMPIADA SCHLYKOVA."
"I am sending you a token by the post, a ring. Please wear
it.--O.S."
Ilya read the letter and bit his lips till they smarted. He read it
again and again, and the more often he read, the better it pleased
him; it was at once a pain and a pleasure to read the big irregularly
written characters.
Previously, Ilya had given little thought to determine what the nature
might be of Olympiada's feelings for himself; now, however, he felt
that she had loved him dearly and warmly, and as he read her letter he
felt a deep peace sink into his heart. But the peace gave way gradually
to a sense of loss, and the consciousness that there was no one now to
whom he could reveal the bitterness of his soul depressed him.
The image of this woman stood vividly before his eyes, he remembered
her passionate caresses, her sensible talk, her jests, and more and
more clearly he felt in his breast a harsh feeling of wretchedness. He
stood moodily by the window, looking into the garden, and there in the
darkness the elder-bushes rustled softly, and the thin, thready twigs
of the birch-trees waved to and fro. From behind the wall the strings
of the guitar resounded mournfully, and Tatiana sang in her high voice:
"Let him who will search through the seas
To find the amber golden----"
Ilya held the letter in his hand and thought: "She always said she was
persistent, and that I brought her good fortune, and yet she has left
me, so the fortune can not have been so very good after all."
He felt himself in the wrong before Olympiada, and sorrow and
compassion weighed heavy on his soul.
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