"O Lord, have mercy!" he whispered and crossed himself. The choir
burst into loud, harmonious song. The soprano voices, giving the words
clearly and distinctly, rang under the dome like the clear, pleasant
tones of sweet bells. The altos vibrated like a ringing tense string,
and against their continued sound, flowing on like a stream, the
soprano notes quivered like the reflection of the sun on a transparent
pool. The full deep bass notes swept proudly through the church,
supporting the children's song; from time to time the beautiful strong
tones of the tenors pierced through, then again the children's voices
rang out, and rose into the twilight of the dome, whence, serious and
thoughtful, clad in white garments, the figure of the Almighty looked
down, blessing the faithful with majestic outstretched hands. The waves
of sound and the scent of incense rolled up to Him, and flowed round
Him, and it seemed as though He floated in the midst, and swept ever
higher into the depths of boundless space.
When the music ceased, Ilya sighed deeply. His heart was light, and he
felt no fear nor repentance, not even the irritation that had disturbed
him when he entered the church. His thoughts flew far away from his own
sins. The music had cleansed and lightened his soul. He could not trust
his own sensations, feeling so unexpectedly calm and peaceful, and he
strove to awaken in himself a sense of remorse, but it was in vain.
Suddenly the thought darted through his mind: "Suppose that woman goes
into my room out of curiosity and looks about and finds the money."
He hurried away out of the church, and hailed a droshky to reach home
as quickly as he could. All the way the thought tormented him, and set
him in a quiver of excitement.
"Suppose they do find the money, what then? They won't lay an
information about it, they'll just steal it."
And this thought roused him still more; he became quite positive that
if it should happen he would go straight to the police in this same
droshky and confess that he had murdered Poluektov. No, he would not
any longer be tortured, and live in dirt and turmoil while others enjoy
in peace and comfort the money for which he sinned so deeply. The
mere idea of it drove him nearly crazy. When the droshky drew up at
his door, he darted out and tugged at the bell; his fist clenched and
his teeth locked, he waited impatiently for the door to open. Tatiana
appeared on the threshold.
"My, what a ring you gave! What's the matter? What's wrong?" she cried,
frightened at the sight of him.
Without a word he pushed her aside, went quickly to his room, and
assured himself in one glance, that his fears were unnecessary. The
money lay behind the upper window-boxing, and he had stuck on a little
scrap of down, in such a way that it must be removed if any one tried
to get at the packet. He saw the white fleck at once against the brown
background.
"Aren't you well?" asked his landlady, appearing at the door of his
room.
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