Through Night to Light: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Through Night to Light: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
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"I was just thinking about that. My father leaves the choice to me,
but----"
The young girl paused, and assumed the same half-thoughtful,
half-wrathful expression of face. She seemed to have forgotten Sophie's
presence. All of a sudden she asked, her eyes still cast down,
"Would you, if you had been insulted, be the first to offer the hand
for reconciliation?"
Sophie was seriously embarrassed by this question, the meaning of which
she could easily divine. Helen had never spoken to her about her
affairs, not even in allusions. She was not to know anything of them,
therefore, and yet it did not suit Helen's candor, and her friendship
for Helen, to affect an ignorance and an indifference which were not
real.
"That depends," she replied, after a short pause, "on what the offence
was, and above all, who was the offending person!"
"How so?"
"There are offences, I think, which only become such by our own making,
and offenders who can never be such--who ought never to be such--I mean
persons who stand so near to us, with whom we are so closely united by
nature, that it would be unnatural, if----"
"They hated us," interrupted Helen, quickly. "But if such a case did
occur: if those hated each other for once, who ought to love each
other; if they persecuted and warred against each other, who ought to
support, help, and bear one another--how then?" Helen had risen;
her face was all aglow; her eyes sparkled; her hands were firmly
closed--the image of a person rejoicing in combat and prepared for
victory or death, but never for surrender.
"I do not know," replied Sophie, affecting a calmness which she did not
possess; "I only know that I for my part could never be placed in such
a position. I could never hate brother or sister, much less father or
mother who gave me life, happen what would. Are they not--myself? And
how can one hate one's own self?"
"Are you quite so sure of that?" answered Helen. "How do you know it?
You never had brother or sister; your mother died very early; your
father has, as you told me yourself, always overwhelmed you with
unbounded affection; but I--I have other----"
Helen probably felt that if she added another word she would not be
able to keep up her reserve hereafter, and broke off with a suddenness
which showed the remarkable control this young creature had already
obtained over herself.
"But we are losing time," she said, with a totally changed air, tone,
and carriage, "and about most unprofitable things. Come, we must hurry
to get back to our music!"
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