Through Night to Light: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Through Night to Light: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
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revives in us the conviction that everything true, beautiful, and
noble, is infinitely simple, and that the well of contentment gushes
forth at the bidding of every one who seeks it with a pure heart."
While Doctor Braun had spoken these words in his usual animated and
impressive manner, Oswald had looked with sad eyes into the far
distance. Now, when his companion ceased, he said--an ironical smile
playing around his lips--
"Are you quite sure of that? And suppose it were so, who will blame the
unfortunate man whose heart is not pure, who is cursed with blindness,
and never sees the well of contentment? We shall meet one of these
unfortunate men to-night. If you will open his closed eyes and restore
to him the purity of his heart, I will worship you as a god."
Doctor Braun seemed to be much affected by these words, which had
towards the end assumed a passionate tone of bitterness. He was silent
for a few moments while they ascended the mountain, and then he said,
"I thought the journey would have calmed you and made you more
cheerful, Oswald. I begin to doubt my professional skill when I see
that the old dreams are as powerful as ever in you. You seemed to be
almost cured of the fatal desire to sit down, like Heine's young man,
by the sea coast, and to ask the restless waves for an answer to the
painful old riddles of life, and now----"
"Now I am once more bored with the old complaint! No, Franz, I will not
bring disgrace upon your mental cure and try to find the world as
beautiful and reasonable as you do. That was only a recollection of the
past. Is it not natural, is it not quite intelligible, that it should
turn up just now, when we approach the end of our pilgrimage, and I am
about once more to meet face to face the noble, unfortunate man to whom
I owe so much, and that after an interval during which so much, so very
much, has changed for him and for myself! I have followed your advice
faithfully, as well as I could. I have let the past bury the past; I
have practised industriously the art of forgetting, and I have sent the
very shadows of the departed back to Hades, when they became
troublesome. But here comes the form of a living man who is dead, of a
dead man who still lives, and I find neither in my mind nor in my heart
the magic words which will lay this spirit, whom I reverence, whom I
mourn with tears, like the others."
"Then let us turn back," said Doctor Braun, with great vivacity. "If
you do not feel the strength in you to maintain the position which you
have yourself chosen, against every objection and every authority, it
would be madness to expose yourself to such danger. Let us turn back;
it is time yet."
"No," said Oswald, "that would be both cowardly and foolish. We do not
overcome danger by avoiding it. I must see Berger and speak to him.
This interview must be the test of the problem that has occupied us
these four weeks. Either I recover myself from my own insanity by
seeing this madman, or----"
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