Through Night to Light: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Through Night to Light: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
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The patient paused a few moments, and then he spoke with great
clearness and decision, so that it was evident he had long contemplated
what he was about to say and turned it over in his enfeebled mind.
"My dear child! It is a good thing to be rich, when he who is rich has
also a good heart; but I believe it is very rare to find the two
together, or to see them stay together. And to be clever is also a good
thing, but without a good heart it is worth little.
"Look here, dear child! Your mother and I--we have lived together
eighteen years, and, next to God, I have loved and honored your mother
more than all things. I think she has taken pains to love me back
again, and I do not blame her if she has not succeeded. No, not her,
only myself. I ought to have taken a wife who was more suitable to my
age and to my ways; but I was vain and proud, and I wanted a handsome,
stately, and clever wife, such as the world admires, and your mother
was handsome, stately, and clever; far too pretty and too clever for
me, an insignificant, simple man, who never was made for the great
world. I felt it, therefore, all the time in my heart that I was not
the man to make your mother happy; but she never let me know it
distinctly until quite recently."
The old man bowed his gray head sadly, and repeated:
"Quite recently--when she wanted you to marry your cousin Felix, and I
could not say Yes! and amen! to it--then I saw very clearly that we
thought and felt in the most important and most sacred things so very
differently; and whether I was right or she, that does not matter now;
but, my dear child, it is a bad thing when those who ought to love each
other cannot do it--a bad thing, my dear child, which may easily break
a heart!"
And as the old man spoke these words the tears were rolling down his
pale, wrinkled cheeks.
Helen sat there, silent and pale. Her hands trembled. Her father's
words had apparently touched her to the heart.
"Therefore," continued the baron, after a short pause, "it has always
been my principle, that parents ought not to interfere with the
affections of their children, but only to pray to God that He would
lead their hearts to choose well. Thus I have left you your choice,
then and now. Then you could not decide; now you have decided. I cannot
conceal it from you that I cannot understand the prince, and that I
wish your future husband were less grand and less rich; but, as it is,
I hope God will turn it to the best. You are a good, clever girl, and I
think you cannot have chosen thoughtlessly, or from mere ambition; no!
no! not thoughtlessly, nor from ambition, for you are my good, clever
girl!" repeated the old man, as Helen, unable to control her emotion
any longer, hid her beautiful head on his bosom, and gave way to a
passionate fit of weeping.
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