Through Night to Light: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Through Night to Light: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
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And now there appears amid these peaceful scenes the form of a man
whose beauty delights her artistic eye, whose gentle kindness lingers
around her like the breath of spring, whose longing finds in her own
heart, full of vague yearning, an eloquent echo--of a man who in
everything seems to be the realization of all her dreams. And as in a
dream she accepts his love, returns it with thousand-fold fire; she
will not see the danger, she will not wake, she insists upon being
happy once in her life. But morning breaks; it becomes impossible to
keep her eyes closed any longer, and to retain the visions of her
dream. Her friend has returned, contrary to all expectations, and
appears before her, warning her, and the very next hour his prophecy
has become true. Blow upon blow, misfortune falls upon her. Did he
dream of it, when it drove him from the ruins of Karnak to his home in
the far North? The news of the approaching death of the man whose name
she bears summons her away from the arms of him whom she loves; she
hastens to fulfil a duty which is all the more sacred to her because of
the blissful happiness that she has enjoyed during the last weeks; and
she returns, her heart full of sweet hopes, and at the same time full
of painful anticipations, and she hears and sees that the man to whom
she has abandoned herself with boundless love has betrayed her. And, as
if that was not enough punishment for her short, secret happiness, her
only child--that beautiful, lovely boy, who was her delight and her
pride--is taken down with a disease which appears to her the beginning
of an affection such as she has just seen end in the most fearful
manner in the father of that child.
But this second blow is perhaps a blessing in disguise. It stuns her so
that she scarcely feels the wound in her heart. The love of the woman
is swallowed up in the love of the mother. She watches day and night by
the bedside of the boy; she has eyes and ears only for his wants and
his wishes; and as soon as he recovers slightly, she takes a journey to
the man in whose experience she has unbounded confidence, and from
whose lips she means to hear the sentence, the decision of life or
death--no! a thousand times worse than death itself! And he has spoken;
he has left her some hope; he has even encouraged her to hope--her boy
is going to live; he will recover; the sins of the father are not to be
visited on the next generation.
And now that her soul has been relieved of the fearful burden--now she
thinks for the first time again of her betrayed love.
Was not this betrayal a just punishment for having cared so much for
her own happiness, and so little for that of the boy? For having
committed treason against her own child; for was not the love for a man
who filled her whole heart treason against her child?
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