And, should that person have been asked why he had thus terrified the
boy, he would probably have replied:
"Because it is such sport to do so. As a lad who cannot feel things as
other human beings do, he inclines folk to make fun of him."
As for the omniscient Antipa Vologonov, the following was his frequent
comment on Nilushka:
"Christ also had to walk in terror. Christ also was persecuted. Why so?
Because ever He endured in rectitude and strength. Men need to learn
what is real and what is unreal. Many are the sins of earth come of the
fact that the seeming is mistaken for the actual, and that men keep
pressing forward when they ought to be waiting, to be proving
themselves."
Hence Vologonov, like the rest, bestowed much attention upon Nilushka,
and frequently held conversations with him.
"Do you now pray to God," he said once as he pointed to heaven with one
of his crooked fingers, and with the disengaged hand clasped his
dishevelled, variously coloured beard.
Whereupon Nilushka glanced fearfully at the mysteriously pointing
finger, and, plucking sharply at his forehead, shoulders, and stomach
with two fingers and a thumb, intoned in thin, plaintive accents:
"Our Father in Heaven--"
"WHICH ART in Heaven."
"Yes, in the Heaven of Heavens."
"Ah, well! God will understand. He is the friend of all blessed ones."
[Idiots; since persons mentally deficient are popularly deemed to stand
in a peculiarly close relation to the Almighty.]
Again, great was Nilushka's interest in anything spherical. Also, he
had a love for handling the heads of children; when, softly approaching
a group from behind, he would, with his bright, quiet smile, lay
slender, bony fingers upon a close-cropped little poll; with the result
that the children, not relishing such fingering, would take alarm at
the same, and, bolting to a discreet distance, thence abuse the idiot,
put out their tongues at him, and drawl in a nasal chorus:
"Nilka, the bottle-neck, the neck without a nape to it" [Probably the
attractiveness of this formula lay rather in the rhyming of the Russian
words: "Nilka, butilka, bashka bez zatilka!" than in their actual
meaning].
Yet their fear of him was in no way reciprocated, nor, for that matter,
did they ever assault him, despite the fact that occasionally they
would throw an old boot or a chip of wood in his direction-throw it
aimlessly, and without really desiring to hit the mark aimed at.
Also, anything circular--for example, a plate or the wheel of a toy,
engaged Nilushka's attention and led him to caress it as eagerly as he
did globes and balls. Evidently the rotundity of the object was the
point that excited his interest. And as he turned the object over and
over, and felt the flat part of it, he would mutter:
"But what about the other one?"
What "the other one" meant I could never divine. Nor could Antipa.
Once, drawing the idiot to him, he said:
"Why do you always say 'What about the other one'?"
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