Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
When the show was over, the crowd disbursed and Dad and I returned to
the restaurant to fetch Mom. Fifteen minutes had elapsed; she would
probably be waiting at an empty table, nursing her glass of water to
alleviate boredom and nervousness. We turned into the restaurant and
couldn't believe our eyes. There was Mom, still poised over a fair
amount of salad, eating diligently; "the salad wouldn't leave," I
thought. At least she wasn't bored during our absence.
Mom eventually finished her salad and we resumed our sightseeing.
Yellowstone Park was an intermingling of beauty and oddity, and as a
result I used a fair amount of film. The animals, though wild, were
close at hand and I was able to see buffalo and elk to my fulfillment.
After two days we left the park and headed into Montana and Washington,
stopping to see the Grand Coulee Dam for my dad's benefit. I was not
impressed and did not care to linger over the massive system of water
retention, yet the trip was not entirely my own and I therefore tried
to suppress my disinterest.
The following day proved more to my liking as we once again headed into
a park. I had never before seen Mt. Rainier and was truly awed to view
the spectacle created by the superior snow-capped mountain. Though
surrounded by other mountains and lushly forested valleys, Mt. Rainier
dominated one's attention like a bejeweled lady among serfs.
June 23, 1977... Went into Rainier. At this one place this jay would
come down and take a peanut out of Dad's hand (in mid-air). Went to
Paradise (visitor center) and hiked up near Mt. Rainier. I never felt
so good in my life. Had to walk through snow in around 3-5 places. It
was real neat.
The day was the highlight of the entire vacation. Separating myself
from my parents, I sped up the trail, spurred onward through a
boundless source of energy and excitement. I felt as if my heart would
burst, for never had I experienced such a profound closeness with
nature. I enjoyed the beauty, but basked in the ecstasy which swelled
from within. My sense of reality had heightened and every inch of my
body was alive with incomparable sensations. I listened to the world,
to the breeze tossing the fragrant pine; I absorbed every detail and
mourned the journey's end, whereupon the noise and clutter of
civilization would scour away the feeling which I so desired to
prolong. Seldom was I entranced by emotion; I slowed my pace and then
stopped to breathe a final breath of tranquility before surrendering my
blissful state of mind to the realm of the ordinary.
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