Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
Retracing my steps, I eventually met Mom and Dad ascending toward the
direction I had climbed. "There's quite a bit of snow up there," I
told them. Sporting only tennis shoes and sweaters, they quickly
re-routed their steps and chose a down-hill trek; they had exercised
enough for one day anyway. The three of us ambled down the
mountain-side, stopping once for a snowball fight which could not be
resisted. It was amazing how rapidly one's mental state changed with
the introduction of various sensations or the presence of other people.
My previous feeling was now only a memory, firmly implanted, yet miles
from my grasp. It was a gem, secure in my mind, and I knew that I was
somehow wealthier than I had been.
Two days after Mt. Rainier, we were driving down the Oregon coastline.
At several intervals we stopped so I could test the breakwater beneath
my bare feet. The shore was beautiful, despite the gray clouds and
ocean mist that eventually obscured the farthest cliffs from view. I
seemed to be walking in a colorless world where all things grew only
darker or lighter shades of silver gray. The water was icy and forbade
me enter; even the foam which rushed up the sand to enrobe my toes was
too frigid to withstand, and sent me sprinting from the constant waves
to higher ground.
The following day we continued through Oregon to Crater Lake, a
magnificent sapphire body of water which left my eyes agape; then,
between destinations, we met a trucker who took us on one of his lumber
runs. As we mosied down the long state of California, we toured a
lumber company and then were awed by the magnificent stands of Sequoia
Redwood trees which soared above all else with an aura of statuesque
grandeur. The giants were some of the oldest living things on earth,
and it seemed incredible and obscene that anyone should desire to cut
them down for timber. Compared to the trees, my life seemed a mockery,
a dwarfed and highly insignificant thing. All did not depreciate with
age.
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