Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
Summer relaxation generally came at irregular intervals, disguised as
hikes, canoe trips and motorcycle rides with Norm. I did not find
total disengagement from my daily cares until two thirds of the season
had elapsed. A week's time was not enough by my way of thinking, but
it was all I had been given; it was better to be satisfied with what I
had than to waste time bemoaning that which I did not have.
This summer Norm and I decided to vacation together. Having discovered
that our day trips went smoothly, we had few qualms about spending a
full week exclusively in each other's company, and with high spirits,
set out at 4:00 on a Sunday morning, bound for Colorado.
We were so psyched about seeing the mountains that we drove through the
entire day and into the evening. When we finally decided, about 7:30,
to find a motel, the choices were "limited" to "nonexistent," so we
forked out $20.00 for a ram-shakle room. Thinking our chance of
finding a decent restaurant would be slightly better than our luck with
motels, we tried to locate the town's business loop. After discovering
the two traffic signals and skirting the streets in both directions, we
gave in to our hunger and raided a 7-Eleven, which would have been
closed in fifteen minutes. Securing some lunch meat, milk, and a can
of pork and beans, we drove back to our humble room, intending to heat
the beans on a portable gas stove.
The gas stove would not light. "It had performed famously at home,"
Norm insisted, feeling somehow betrayed by the inanimate object
sprawling before him. At least our choice of food could be eaten cold.
Norm picked up the can of beans and retrieved a can opener from a sack
of utensils, clamping it on the can like a pro. The can galloped
'round and 'round, but failed to open. Outraged, Norm flew at the can
with a metal punch, flailing and prying with a vengeance until a jagged
opening would accommodate a spoon.
It was not what we had in mind, but it was a Sunday evening in a small
town. We stayed up for awhile, blinking at a show on television. I
felt reasonably content, but Norm stole glances at the traitorous stove
ranging from malice to disbelief. "Man!" he kept repeating, "It worked
at home." I couldn't help but smile to myself; he demanded so little of
life, but on that night, even the smallest favors had been denied.
"Poor Norm," I thought. He was more discouraged than I!
Aug. 4, 1980... Got a great little kitchenette.
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