Moon -- Fiction; Science fiction; Short stories; Storytelling -- Fiction; Time -- Fiction
"If you saw yourself as a boy of ten, suddenly, without warning, would
you recognize yourself? Maybe some men would. If you looked at yourself
a lot in a mirror when you were growing up--or kept photographs of
yourself, carefully preserved in an old album, you might not have any
trouble. Right off you might hear yourself muttering, 'Why, that's
_me_!'
"But I had trouble. The kid's face was just enough like my own to give
me a start. But I couldn't really place it--couldn't remember where I
had seen it before.
"Then the kid spoke. 'I--I thought you were Pops! But you're not! He's
older! Where am I? How did I get here?'
* * * * *
"The voice did something to me. You get a chance to hear yourself
talking a lot when you're knee-high to a grasshopper. And I had no kids
of my own! But my own father had looked enough like me to be my twin
brother, and if this kid thought I was his dad--
"It hit me between the eyes--and like a voice screaming at me through a
blur of spinning suns!
"I was staring at myself as I had been long ago--and no tracks made by
a dead man in a bog could have been more nerve-shattering.
"He wasn't even a poor little kid in a desperate plight, because you
can't feel paternal about yourself! He was a tormented ghost out of the
past, and for an instant I had an impulse to blame him and rail at him
for returning to torture me.
"But I'm not a cruel man, deep down, and that crazy impulse passed
quickly. He was a poor little lost cuss, even if he _was_ myself, and
all my sympathy went out to him.
"I even forgot for a moment how insane the whole thing was. He was
gasping for breath, so I put the helmet back on, and gave the oxygen
tube a double twist to straighten it out. But an instant before the
helmet descended over his mouth he managed to stammer, 'I was up in the
attic playing--'
"Playing 'Pirate's den!' I had spent the happiest years of my boyhood
in the attic, pretending I was Captain Kidd, or climbing out on the
tree that arched over our house when the December snows weighed it
down, and making myself out to be in the crow's nest of an arctic
windjammer!
"As I swayed there beside myself my mind followed crazy-paved paths
in all directions. Great chunks of the past seemed to float before
me--like icebergs nine-tenths submerged.
"But all the while the sanest part of my mind was seeking an
explanation that would one-tenth explain it! I gripped my own boy-self
by the shoulder to make sure he'd stay solid until the man he'd become
could get a mental toe-hold on the problem.
"If you can persuade a man to mount a stepladder and plant himself
firmly on the air you've taken your first brave step into the unknown.
The poor devil may or may not fall. But at least you've made a start in
the right direction.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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