Afterward he came out on the porch with his Bible and Concordance,
sat down and heard Bettina brushing his hat and ejaculating, “Fater!”
Presently he began to nod drowsily and his head dropped low over the
Concordance. The chickens clucked drowsily in the road.
ON EDOM HILL
I.
CHARLIE SEBASTIAN was a turfman, meaning that he had something to do
with race-horses, and knew property as rolls of bank bills, of which one
now and then suddenly has none at all; or as pacers and trotters that
are given to breaking and unaccountably to falling off in their nervous
systems; or as “Association Shares” and partnership investments in a
training stable; all capable of melting and going down in one vortex. So
it happened at the October races. And from this it arose that in going
between two heated cities and low by the sea he stopped among the high
hills that were cold.
He was a tall man with a pointed beard, strong of shoulder and foot, and
without fear in his eyes. After two hours' riding he woke from a doze
and argued once more that he was a “phenomenally busted man.” It made
no difference, after all, which city he was in. Looking out at the white
hills that showed faintly in the storm, it occurred to him that this was
not the railway line one usually travelled to the end in view. It was
singular, the little difference between choices. You back the wrong
horse; then you drink beer instead of fizz, and the results of either
are tolerable. Let a man live lustily and there's little to regret. He
had found ruin digestible before, and never yet gone to the dogs that
wait to devour human remnants, but had gotten up and fallen again, and
on the whole rejoiced. Stomach and lungs of iron, a torrent of red
blood in vein and artery maintain their consolations; hopes rise again,
blunders and evil doings seem to be practically outlived. So without
theory ran Sebastian's experience. The theory used to be that his sin
would find a man out. There were enough of Sebastian's that had gone
out, and never returned to look for him. So too with mistakes and
failures. A little while, a year or more, and you are busy with other
matters. It is a stirring world, and offers no occupation for ghosts.
The dragging sense of depression that he felt seemed natural enough; not
to be argued down, but thrown aside in due time. Yet it was a feeling of
pallid and cold futility, like the spectral hills and wavering snow.
“I might as well go back!”
He tossed a coin to see whether it was fated he should drop off at the
next station, and it was.
“Ramoth!” cried the brakeman.
Sebastian held in his surprise as a matter of habit.
But on the platform in the drift and float of the snow-storm he stared
around at the white January valley, at the disappearing train, at the
sign above the station door, “Ramoth.”
“That's the place,” he remarked. “There wasn't any railroad then.”
There were hidden virtues in a flipped coin. Sebastian had his
superstitions.
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