Ex-convicts -- Fiction; Love stories; New York (N.Y.) -- Social conditions -- Fiction; Self-sacrifice -- Fiction
David's mind ran over the efforts by which this change had been wrought:
Morton's forcing the police to close disorderly resorts; his eloquent
appeals to the public for fair treatment of such neighbourhoods as his;
his unwearied visiting of the sick, and his ready assumption of the
troubles of others; his perfect good-fellowship, which made all approach
him freely, yet none with disrespectful familiarity; his wonderful
sermons, so simple, direct and appealing that there was never an empty
seat. He was sympathetic--magnetic--devoted--brilliant. Thus he had won
the neighbourhood; not all, for the evil forces he had fought, led by
the boss of the ward, held him in bitter enmity. But in three or four
hundred families, he was God.
David turned from the window. Mrs. Humphrey had asked if she should not
take him in to see Morton, but he had shrunk from having eyes upon him
when he entered the presence of his dead friend. He now moved to the
door of Morton's chamber, paused chokingly, then stepped into the
darkened room. On the bed lay a slender, sheeted figure. For the first
moment, awe at the mystery of life rose above all other feelings: Monday
he had seen Morton, strangely depressed to be sure, but in his usual
health; this was Saturday, and there he lay!
His emotions trembling upon eruption, David crossed slowly to the bed.
With fearing hand he drew the sheet from the face, and for a long space
gazed down at the fine straight nose, at the deeply-set eyes, and at the
high broad forehead, the most splendid he had ever seen, with the soft
hair falling away from it against the pillow. Then suddenly he sank to a
chair, and his grief broke from him.
Soon his mind began to dwell upon the contrast between Morton and
himself--what a great light was this that had been stricken out, what a
pitiable candle flame was this left burning. In the presence of these
dead powers he felt how small was his literary achievement, how small
his chance of future success, how comparatively trivial that success
would be even if gained. David had felt to its full the responsibility
of life; he had longed, with a keenness that was at times actual
physical pain, that his life might count some little what in advancing
the general good. But he realised now, as he gazed at the white face on
the pillow, that in the field of humanitarianism, as in the field of
literature, his achievement was nothing.
He burnt with a sudden rush of shame that he was alive, and he clenched
his hands and in tense whispers cried out against the injustice of God
in taking so useful a man as Morton and leaving so useless a cumbrance
as himself. But this defiance soon passed into a different mood. He
slipped to his knees, and a wish sobbed up from his heart that he might
change places with the figure on the bed.
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