Ex-convicts -- Fiction; Love stories; New York (N.Y.) -- Social conditions -- Fiction; Self-sacrifice -- Fiction
"There is little to tell," he repeated. "I am what you see--the janitor
of this house." As he spoke the word "janitor" it flashed upon him that
there had been a time when, in his wild visions, he had thought of
winning this woman to be his wife. He flushed.
"Yes, I know. But you have other plans--other ambitions."
"A week ago my ambition was to find work that would keep me alive," he
returned, smiling. "I have just attained that ambition. I have hardly
had time to dream new dreams."
"But you will dream them again," she said confidently.
"I had them when--when I came back, and I suppose they will return."
"Yes. Go on!"
He had thought, in his most hopeful moments, that some day she might
regard him with a distant friendliness, but he had never expected such
an interest as was shown in her eager, peremptory tone. "There were two
dreams. One was this: I wondered, if I were honest, if I worked hard, if
I were of service to those about me, could I, after several years, win
back the respect of the world, or its semi-respect? You know the world
is so thoughtless, so careless, so slow to forgive. And I wondered if
perhaps, after several years, I could win back the respect of some of my
old friends?"
"I was sure that was one dream, one plan," she said, quietly. "For
myself----" She gave him her hand.
"Thank you!" he said, his voice low and threaded with a quaver.
"And though the world is thoughtless, and slow to forgive, and though
the struggle will be hard, I'm certain that you are going to succeed."
Her rich voice was filled with quiet belief. "And the other dream?"
"It's presumptuous in me to speak of the other dream, for to work for
its fulfilment would require all the things I've lost and many things I
never had--a fair name, influence, some money, a personality, ability of
the right sort. Besides, the dream is vague, unshaped--only a dream. It
is not new, and it is not even my own dream. Thousands have dreamt it,
and many are striving to turn it into a fact, a condition. Yes, it would
be presumptuous for me to speak of it."
"But I'd like very much to hear about it--if you don't mind."
"Even though it will sound absurd from me? Well, if you wish me to."
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