Tokyo to Tijuana: Gabriele Departing AmericaSills, Steven David Justin
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Tokyo to Tijuana: Gabriele Departing America
Sills, Steven David Justin
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During an intermission, while others were leaving, the stranger got up and left
with his dog. Sang Huin, on impulse, followed. Without yearning for a
cigarette, he lit one in the lobby and waited at the entry of the bathroom. If
he were troubled by the peculiarity of his actions, he was only marginally
reassured by the fact that they were not witnessed. His actions seemed that of
a stalker although this seeming, this appearance, was only ruminated on by
himself. His motives, however, were nebulous in this desire; and this inability
to understand why he was seeking this individual was a troubling factor. It was
the impulsiveness of one lacking social skills who suddenly drives up to a
school playground to form intimacies, discards the body in abhorrence and
disbelief over being the perpetrator of the crime, and in a half hour finds
himself to be a pedophile and a murderer. And yet he wasn't stalking a child
but a man and he wasn't running on the energy of sexual conquest and hate, but
just running away from loneliness. If this innocuous action were stalking, all
humans, he told himself, were stalkers. Without question, he was so desperate
to disrupt his isolation like the pensive ruminations of a mute circus gypsy
alone in the back of his tent. He was so anxious to escape his incommunicable
thoughts through friendship, or the hope of it, that he was ready to shoot it
out randomly to whomever caught his eye. Many selfish whims constituted an
attraction, but he told himself that this was not the making of a stalker. Then
the stranger and his dog came out.
"Anyong hashimnika," greeted Sang Huin as he touched the man's arm so that he
would know he was addressing him.
"Anyong haseyo" (informal: peace, you do). They spoke loudly because of the
noise of the crowds loitering and coming and going from the restrooms.
"Yongo mal ha su isumnika?"
"Yes, I can speak English. Can I help you?"
It was interesting for him to be thought of as an American instantaneously.
Sang Huin found it refreshing to not have someone give him that surprise and
grimace for being a Korean without a language.
"No. Good symphony. Do you like Rimsky?"
"Rimsky-Korsakov. Yes, not all of the music is Rimsky's but they were playing
music from that composer earlier. He is Russian, one of the best, I think."
Sang Huin smiled at the acquaintance and then realized that his smile wouldn't
pierce through the sunglasses. Unable to let his benign nature penetrate
through the plastic, he again thought of himself as somewhat equivalent to a
stalker. He felt nervous.
""Would you like a cigarette? We've got ten minutes." He thought of the words
and instruments which human beings employed to break from their innate states
of emptiness; and the connections sought from attractions that would be
forsaken if the experiences seemed shallow and there was an assumption that no
major connections would evolve from them.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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