Tom could not help feeling it as he traversed that part of the trench
in which his especial duty lay. Unimaginative as he was, his mind
worked freely. He called to mind the engagement of a few days before,
remembered what he had seen and heard.
Again and again he traversed the cutting in the earth; his rifle on his
shoulder, and bayonet fixed. How silent it was! Not a man's voice was
to be heard. He knew that sentries were all around him, but he could
not hear a footstep; he knew, too, that many of the soldiers lay in
their dug-outs, sleeping as peacefully as though they were at home.
And yet he felt all alone. "Where's Jim Bates now, I wonder, and
Arthur Wadge, and Bill Perkins, and George Wilson? they were killed,
but are they really dead?" he said to himself. He had known these lads
well; in fact, they had been pals of his, and he wondered what had
become of them. Were they still alive? What had they felt like when
they had to cross the deep, dark valley? What was death?
He thought of his old Sunday-schooldays, thought of his old beliefs.
"Ay," cried Tom aloud, "if I could only feel that Christ was wi' me now
I shouldn't care a bit; but I gave Him up months ago. Alice Lister
believed in Him, ay, she did an' all. I wonder where Alice is now?
Does she ever think about me, I wonder? does she pray for me as she
said?"
He thought of what the man had said in the Y.M.C.A. hut on the night
before they set sail for France. He had told the soldiers that they
needed a personal Saviour, and that that Saviour was ever waiting, ever
watching, to give them help; that He would be near all those who
stretched out their lame hands of faith towards Him, and help them,
strengthen them, comfort them. It was very unreal, it seemed a long
way off too. And yet was it? Was Christ there just as the man had
said?
"Boom!" The sound came from an enemy's gun, but he heard no shell
screeching its way through space, saw no light of explosion. It was
not repeated, although he waited, listening tensely. Minute after
minute passed, still there was silence; evidently the English gunners
were instructed not to reply.
What was the meaning of it? The silence became so tense that it seemed
to make a noise; the air was laden with gloom.
"I wonder what it means," said the boy, and a great fear possessed him;
he felt as though he were on the brink of a fathomless chasm, a chasm
which was as black as ink.
Minute after minute he waited, and still no sound broke the silence.
He tried to comfort himself by remembering pleasant things that
happened at Brunford, but in vain. It seemed to him as though he was
surrounded by something fierce and terrible; was it a premonition of
death, he wondered?
Again he called to mind what the Y.M.C.A. man had said on the night
before they started for the Front. He had advised them to pray, and to
put their trust in a loving God who had been revealed to them through
Jesus Christ.
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