"Yes. It can never be dull. But here, in winter at least, it is
extraordinarily--" he paused for the exactly right word, in a calm way
that was peculiar to him and that seemed to emphasise his fine
self-possession--"pathetic, and suggestive of calamity."
"I have noticed that, indeed," Uniacke answered, "and never, I think,
more than to-night."
Hamilton looked across at him in the firelight.
"Where did you see it fall?" he asked.
"I was by the wall of the churchyard."
"It was you, then, whom I saw from the window. It seemed to be a mourner
looking at the graves."
"I was looking at them. But nobody I care for deeply is buried there.
The night, however, in such an island as this, makes every grave seem
like the grave of a person one has known. It is the sea, I daresay."
"So close on every hand. Why, this house of yours might be a ship afloat
a hundred miles from land, judging by the sounds of the waves."
He sighed heavily.
"I hope the air will do you good," Uniacke remarked, with a sudden
relapse into conversational lameness.
"Thank you. But sea air is no novelty to me. Half of my life, at least,
has been spent in it. I have devoted all the best of my life, my powers,
my very soul to the service of the sea. And now, when I am growing old,
I sometimes think that I shall hate it before I go."
"Hate it!"
"Yes."
"Well--but it has brought you fame."
"H'm. And wealth and a thousand acquaintances. Yes, that's quite true.
Sometimes, nevertheless, we learn in the end to hate those who have
brought us most. Perhaps, because they have educated us in the
understanding of disappointment. You love the sea?"
"Yes."
"You wouldn't be here otherwise."
"I did not come here exactly because of that," Uniacke said slowly.
"No," said the painter.
"Rather to forget something."
"I doubt if this is a place which could teach one to forget. I find it
quite otherwise."
The two men looked at each other, the elderly painter on his height of
fame, the young clergyman in his depth of obscurity, and each felt that
there was a likeness between them.
"I came here to forget a woman," Uniacke said at last, moved by a
strange impulse to speak out.
"Yes, I see. It is the old idea of sorrowful men, a hermitage. I have
often wondered in London, in Rome, in Athens, whether a hermitage is of
any avail. Men went out into the desert in old days. Legend has it that
holiness alone guided them there. All their disciples believed that.
Reading about them I have often doubted it."
He smiled rather coldly and cynically.
"You don't know what a hermitage can mean. You have only been here three
days. Besides, you come in search of--"
"Search!" Hamilton interrupted, with an unusual quickness.
"Of work and health."
"Oh, yes. Do you care, since we are on intimate topics, to tell me any
more about yourself and--and--"
"That woman?"
"Yes."
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