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It wasn’t simply that I received a vast impression of space and
multitude and opportunity; intimate things also were suddenly dragged
from neglected, veiled and darkened corners into an acute vividness of
perception. Close at hand in the big art museum I came for the first
time upon the beauty of nudity, which I had hitherto held to be a
shameful secret, flaunted and gloried in; I was made aware of beauty as
not only permissible, but desirable and frequent and of a thousand
hitherto unsuspected rich aspects of life. One night in a real rapture,
I walked round the upper gallery of the Albert Hall and listened for
the first time to great music; I believe now that it was a rendering of
Beethoven’s Ninth Symphony....
My apprehension of spaces and places was reinforced by a quickened
apprehension of persons. A constant stream of people passed by me, eyes
met and challenged mine and passed—more and more I wanted then to
stay—if I went eastward towards Piccadilly, women who seemed then to my
boyish inexperience softly splendid and alluring, murmured to me as
they passed. Extraordinarily life unveiled. The very hoardings
clamoured strangely at one’s senses and curiosities. One bought
pamphlets and papers full of strange and daring ideas transcending
one’s boldest; in the parks one heard men discussing the very existence
of God, denying the rights of property, debating a hundred things that
one dared not think about in Wimblehurst. And after the ordinary
overcast day, after dull mornings, came twilight, and London lit up and
became a thing of white and yellow and red jewels of light and
wonderful floods of golden illumination and stupendous and unfathomable
shadows—and there were no longer any mean or shabby people—but a great
mysterious movement of unaccountable beings....
Always I was coming on the queerest new aspects. Late one Saturday
night I found myself one of a great slow-moving crowd between the
blazing shops and the flaring barrows in the Harrow Road; I got into
conversation with two bold-eyed girls, bought them boxes of chocolate,
made the acquaintance of father and mother and various younger brothers
and sisters, sat in a public-house hilariously with them all, standing
and being stood drinks, and left them in the small hours at the door of
“home,” never to see them again. And once I was accosted on the
outskirts of a Salvation Army meeting in one of the parks by a
silk-hatted young man of eager and serious discourse, who argued
against scepticism with me, invited me home to tea into a clean and
cheerful family of brothers and sisters and friends, and there I spent
the evening singing hymns to the harmonium (which reminded me of
half-forgotten Chatham), and wishing all the sisters were not so
obviously engaged....
Then on the remote hill of this boundless city-world I found Ewart.
III
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