Ghosts -- Fiction; Invalids -- Fiction; Women authors -- Fiction
As I said, I took two codein pills instead of one that night, and in an
hour or so was conscious of the comfort and phantasmagoria of morphia. I
was no longer in the bedroom of which I had tired, nor in the rough
garden without trees or shade. I had escaped from these and in returning
health was beside the sea, happily listening to the little waves
breaking on the stones, no soul in sight but those two, Margaret Capel
and Gabriel Stanton, in earnest talk that came to me as I sat with my
back against a rock, the salt wind in my face. How it was they did not
see me and moderate their voices I do not know, morphia gives one these
little lapses and surprises.
Margaret looked extraordinarily sedate and yet perverse, her thin lips
pink and eyes dancing. I saw the incandescent effect of which Peter
Kennedy had told me. It was not only her eyes that were alight but the
woman herself, the luminous fair skin and the fairness of her hair
stirred and brightened by the sun and the sea-wind. She talked vividly,
whilst he sat at her feet listening intently, offering her the homage of
his softened angularities, his abandoned scholarship, his adoring eyes.
“Why did you come? I told you not to come. Of course I meant to wire in
answer to your letter that you were to stay in London. What was the use
of my running away?”
I saw that he fingered the hem of her skirt, and watched her all the
time she spoke.
“Tomorrow I shall have no expectation in the post. I hate not to care
whether my letters come or not. And Monday too. You have spoiled two
mornings for me.”
“I am not as satisfying as my letters to you.” Even his voice was
changed, the musical charming Stanton voice. His had deepened and there
was the note of an organ in it. She looked at him critically or
caressingly.
“Not quite, not yet. I understand your letters better than I do you. And
you are never twice alike, not quite alike. We part as friends,
intimates. Then we come together again and you are almost a stranger; we
have to begin all over again.”
“I am sorry.” He looked perplexed. “How do I change or vary? I cannot
bear to think that you should look upon me as a stranger.”
“Only for a few moments.”
“When you met me at the station today?”
“I was at the station early, and then was vexed I had come, looking
about me to see if there were any one I knew or who knew me. I took
refuge at the bookstall, found ‘The Immoralists’ among the two-shilling
soiled.” She left off abruptly, and her face clouded.
“Don’t!” he whispered.
“How quick you are!” Now their hands met. She smiled and went on
talking. “I heard a click and saw that the signals were down. The train
rounded the curve and came in slowly. People descended; I was conscious
of half a dozen, although I saw but one. No, I didn’t see you, only your
covert coat and felt hat. I felt a pang of disappointment.” Their hands
fell apart. I saw he was hurt. She may have seen it too, but made no
sign.
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