Ghosts -- Fiction; Invalids -- Fiction; Women authors -- Fiction
“When I see you after an interval my heart rushes out to you, my pulses
leap. I feel myself growing pale. I am paralysed and devoid of words.
Margaret! My very soul breathes _Margaret_, my wonderful Margaret. I
cannot get my breath.” Her eyes shone and exulted.
“It is not like that always?” she whispered, leaning towards him.
“It is like that always. But today it was more than that. I had not seen
you for a week, a whole long week. Sometimes in that week I had not
dared look forward.”
“And then you saw me.” She was hanging upon his words. He got up
abruptly and walked a few paces away from her, to the edge of the sea.
She smiled quietly to herself when he left her like that. He was
suffering, he could not bear the contrast between what she had thought
of him and he of her.
“Gabriel!” she called him back presently, called softly and he came
swiftly.
“I had better go back to town by the next train. I disappoint you.”
“Silly!” She was amazingly, alluringly smiling into his dour eyes, not
satisfied until he smiled too. “It is my sense of style. I am like
grammar; all moods and tenses. You want me to tell you everything, don’t
you?”
“Am I the man for you? that is what I want you to tell me. I don’t know
what you mean by that sense of strangeness—I cannot bear it.”
“Don’t you vary? wonder, doubt?”
“I always knew from the first afternoon when you were shown into my room
in Greyfriars’, your black fur framing your exquisite porcelain face,
your eyes like wavering stars, that you were the only woman in the
world. Since then the conviction of it grows deeper and deeper, more
certain. You are never out of my mind. I know I am not good enough for
you, too old and grave. But you have let me hope. Oh! you wonderful
child.” For still she was smiling at him in that dazzling alluring way.
He was at her feet and the hem of her dress again against his lips.
“Don’t you understand, can’t I make you understand? I adore you, I
worship you. I want nothing from you except that you let me tell you so
sometimes.”
“It is so much nicer when you write it,” she murmured.
“Don’t.” She cajoled him.
“I can’t take it lightly,” he burst out. “Pity me, forgive me, but don’t
laugh at me.”
“I am not laughing.”
“I know. You are an angel of sweetness, goodness. Margaret, let me love
you!”
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