Ghosts -- Fiction; Invalids -- Fiction; Women authors -- Fiction
“Sometimes. What are you implying? What are you trying to get at?
Whatever it is, you are wrong. I was in her confidence, she liked
talking to me. I did her good.”
“With drugs or dogma?” I asked.
“With sympathy. She had suffered terribly, more than any woman should be
allowed to suffer. And she was ultra-sensitive, her nerves were all
exposed, inflamed. You have sometimes that elusive, strange resemblance
to her. But she had neither strength nor courage and as for hardness ...
she did not know the meaning of the word.”
“You are wrong. Last night I heard her talk to Gabriel Stanton.”
“Did you?” His eyes lightened. “Tell me. But he was not the man for her,
never the man for her. Not sufficiently flexible. He took her too
seriously.”
“Can a man take a woman too seriously?”
“An emotional, nervous, delicate woman. Yes. You’ve been through all the
letters?”
“No. There are a few more.”
They were on the table, and I put my hand on them. I was sure that no
one but I must see them.
“The first two or three times that Gabriel Stanton came down he stayed
at ‘The King’s Arms.’ She was always ill after he left, always. She made
a brave effort, poor girl. Day after day I have come in and seen her
sitting as you are, paper before her, and ink. I don’t think anything
ever came of it. She would play too, for hours.”
“You stayed away when he was here, I suppose?”
“No! Not always. I was sent for once or twice. She had those heart
attacks.”
“Hysteria?”
“Heart attacks. He did not know how to treat or calm her.”
“Poor Gabriel Stanton!”
“Poor Margaret Capel!” he retorted. “I wouldn’t try to write the story
if I were you. You misjudge her, I am sure you do. She was
delicate-minded.”
“Why did she have him down here at all? She knew the risk she ran. Why
did she not wait until the decree _was_ made absolute?” For by now, of
course, I knew how the trouble came about.
“She was in love with him.”
“She did not know the meaning of the word. She was philandering with you
at the time.” He grew red.
“She was not. I was her doctor.”
“And are not doctors men?”
“Not with their patients.”
I looked at him thoughtfully and remembered Ella. He answered as if he
read my thoughts.
“You are not my patient, you are Lansdowne’s.” He gave a short uncertain
laugh when he had said that. That seemed amusing to me, for I did not
care whether he was a man or not, feeling ill and superlatively old and
sexless, also that he lacked something, had played this game with
Margaret, the game she had taught him, until his withers were all
unwrung, until she had bereft him of reason, leaving him empty, as it
were hollow, filled up with words, meaningless words that were part of
the fine game, of which he had forgotten or never known the rules.
After he left I read her next letter, the one written after Gabriel
Stanton had been to Pineland for the first time, and she had told him
how she felt about him.
Carbies, Pineland.
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