Domestic fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Upper class -- Fiction
It was queer that such a mood of calm lucidity had come out of the fury
of hate with which he rushed from her house. If it had not, he would
have gone mad--smashed something, done something irretrievable. And
instead here he was, calmly contemplating his own folly and hers! He
must go on seeing her, of course; there was more reason than ever for
seeing her; but there would be no danger in it now, only help for
her--and perhaps healing for him. To this new mood he clung as to an
inviolable refuge. The turmoil and torment of the last months could
never reach him again: he had found a way out, an escape. The relief of
being quiet, of avoiding a conflict, of settling everything without
effusion of blood, stole over him like the spell of the drug-taker's
syringe. Poor little Lita ... never again to be adored (thank heaven),
but, oh, so much the more to be helped and pitied...
This deceptive serenity had come to him during his call on Mrs.
Landish--come from her very insensibility to any of the standards he
lived by. He had gone there--he saw it now--moved by the cruel masculine
desire to know the worst about a fallen idol. What he called the
determination to "face things"--what was it but the savage longing to
accumulate all the evidence against poor Lita? Give up the Mahatma
investigation? Never! All the more reason now for going on with it; for
exposing the whole blackguardly business, opening poor Jim's eyes to his
wife's past (better now than later), and helping him to get on his feet
again, start fresh, and recover his faith in life and happiness. For of
course poor Jim would be the chief sufferer... Damn the woman! She
wanted to get rid of Jim, did she? Well, here was her chance--only it
would be the other way round. The tables would be turned on her. She'd
see--! This in his first blind outbreak of rage; but by the time he
reached Mrs. Landish's door the old legal shrewdness had come to his
rescue, and he had understood that a public scandal was unnecessary, and
therefore to be avoided. Easy enough to get rid of Lita without that.
With such evidence as he would soon possess they could make any
conditions they chose. Jim would keep the boy, and the whole thing be
settled quietly--but on their terms, not hers! She would be only too
thankful to clear out bag and baggage--clean out of all their lives.
Faugh--to think he had delegated his own Nona to look after her ...
the thought sickened him.
And then, in the end, it had all come out so differently. He needed his
hard tramp around the Park to see just why.
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