“If you had seen him you would have understood at once how impossible it
was for Freya to have ever loved that man. Well, well. I don’t say.
She might have—something. She was lonely, you know. But really to go
away with him! Never! Madness. She was too sensible . . . I began to
reproach him gently. And by and by he turns on me. ‘Write to you! What
about? Come to her! What with? If I had been a man I would have
carried her off, but she made a child, a happy child, of me. Tell her
that the day the only thing I had belonging to me in the world perished
on this reef I discovered that I had no power over her. . . Has she come
here with you?’ he shouts, blazing at me suddenly with his hollow eyes.
I shook my head. Come with me, indeed! Anæmia! ‘Aha! You see? Go
away, then, old man, and leave me alone here with that ghost,’ he says,
jerking his head at the wreck of his brig.
“Mad! It was getting dusk. I did not care to stop any longer all by
myself with that man in that lonely place. I was not going to tell him
of Freya’s illness. Anæmia! What was the good? Mad! And what sort of
husband would he have made, anyhow, for a sensible girl like Freya? Why,
even my little property I could not have left them. The Dutch
authorities would never have allowed an Englishman to settle there. It
was not sold then. My man Mahmat, you know, was looking after it for me.
Later on I let it go for a tenth of its value to a Dutch half-caste. But
never mind. It was nothing to me then. Yes; I went away from him. I
caught the return mail-boat. I told everything to Freya. ‘He’s mad,’ I
said; ‘and, my dear, the only thing he loved was his brig.’
“‘Perhaps,’ she says to herself, looking straight away—her eyes were
nearly as hollow as his—‘perhaps it is true. Yes! I would never allow
him any power over me.’”
Old Nelson paused. I sat fascinated, and feeling a little cold in that
room with a blazing fire.
“So you see,” he continued, “she never really cared for him. Much too
sensible. I took her away to Hong Kong. Change of climate, they said.
Oh, these doctors! My God! Winter time! There came ten days of cold
mists and wind and rain. Pneumonia. But look here! We talked a lot
together. Days and evenings. Who else had she? . . . She talked a lot
to me, my own girl. Sometimes she would laugh a little. Look at me and
laugh a little—”
I shuddered. He looked up vaguely, with a childish, puzzled moodiness.
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