The little sinless soul must be happy now, she thinks; but, oh! the
agony that is left, the awful sense of loss, loneliness, despair,
through which that robbed and paralysed motherhood must wade ... the
deep waters ere comfort is reached ... when every sight and sound
will bring back the memory of loss, when every child's voice will
strike sharp as a knife to the aching heart that holds the echo of
but one. Alas, alas! for the desolation of this sad young life,
that, clinging but to one joy amidst all the storms and sorrows and
weariness around, sees it snatched suddenly from its hold, and looks
out on a future blank and desolate as a starless night, where all is
shrouded from sight and touch, and every landmark obliterated.
Another day comes to replace the wretchedness of this. Lauraine
rises white and calm from her bed, and still dry-eyed and tearless,
takes up life with its new burden of sorrow. Arrangements, orders,
all devolve upon her. No word has come from Sir Francis, but a
telegram announces that her mother will be there that night. Lady
Etwynde watches her in the deepest distress. This cold, strange,
tearless grief is worse than the most frantic sorrow. It seems to
chill all sympathy, to harden her, as it were, against all offers of
consolation. When Mrs. Douglas arrives it is just the same. Her
reception of her mother is almost cold, and, pleading fatigue as an
excuse, she retires to her own rooms, leaving Lady Etwynde to do the
entertaining.
Mrs. Douglas, who dislikes Lady Etwynde, grumbles openly at her
daughter's strange behaviour.
"So odd, so cold, so unfeeling, as if I could not sympathize with her
loss--I, who have lost two children of my own. And to shut herself
apart from every one like that, it is positively unnatural."
"It has been an awful shock to her," says Lady Etwynde gravely.
"Of course, of course; but then, such a baby; and she is young, she
will have plenty more. But I never knew any one so changed as
Lauraine is since she married. She is not a bit like the same girl."
"Marriage does change people, you know," answers Lady Etwynde,
looking calmly back at Mrs. Douglas. "And I never thought Lauraine
was happy."
"Happy! What in heaven's name does she want? She has everything
that could satisfy a woman, I am sure, and it was quite a--a
love-match."
"Indeed!" says Lady Etwynde, arching her delicate eyebrows. "On
whose side?"
Mrs. Douglas passes by this question loftily. "She is of a cold
nature, and utterly different to me. I am sure if she had had to
bear all the troubles and worries I have put up with during my life
she might talk of unhappiness. Lauraine's unhappiness must be
something like a crumpled rose-leaf, I imagine."
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