"Fretting could do no good," he said philosophically, and he hated
the gloomy quietude of Falcon's Chase, and was only too glad to leave
it. Lady Etwynde stayed with Lauraine all through that dreary
winter; she could not bear to leave her alone in her grief and
despair, for the sorrow seemed but to take deeper root in her nature.
Even all Lady Etwynde's gentle sympathy could make no way. She
half-feared and only half-comprehended this new phase in her friend's
character. For she could not know that Lauraine felt a terror of
herself now; that it seemed to her as if the one safeguard she had
clung to had been swept from her hold, and she lay anchorless,
shelterless on the great dark sea of life, beholding no hope or ray
of light, turn where she would.
The chill of winter passed into the fair, sweet month of spring; but
no change came to her. Nothing seemed to thaw the ice about her
heart. A strange chill and silence from the outer world rested upon
her life as it was now. Of all her many friends and acquaintances
none seemed to remember her or heed her. Keith had written again and
yet again; she had never answered him once. She _dared_ not. His
sympathy, his presence would have been a comfort too great not to be
dangerous, and the more she longed for them the more rigorously she
denied them to herself. With the spring her husband wrote to know
whether she wanted to come to town for the season. She read the
letter with a shuddering horror. The season! To dance, drive,
gossip, kill time in a round of empty pleasures; sate herself with
luxury and extravagance. The thought seemed loathsome to her now.
Her youth and all that was best in her seemed to have died with her
little child. Her eyes seemed ever to have that look in them that
has so frightened and pained her friend; the look as of tears that
could not fall.
She was awfully, terribly changed, both in body and mind, and when
Lady Etwynde paid her a flying visit, tearing herself from æsthetic
joys and the glories of the Grosvenor Gallery Exhibition, and endless
_réunions_ among the cultured, she was shocked and alarmed at the
alteration.
"You must leave here, or you will go melancholy mad!" she said,
imperatively; and Lauraine, having arrived at that stage when she was
too spiritless and too indifferent to oppose any vigorous scheme,
yielded passively, and was borne off to Erlsbach.
Sir Francis, of course, could not come. He liked London, and was not
going to give up its thousand and one enjoyments for the sake of an
invalid's whim. Her mother offered voluntarily to sacrifice herself
in the matter; but Lauraine would not hear of it, and in the end she
and Lady Etwynde, under charge of an experienced courier, set out for
Germany and, travelling by slow and easy stages, arrived one warm
June evening at quaint, pretty Erlsbach.
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