"After all," says Keith, with a mocking laugh that grates terribly on
her ear, "why _should_ I not follow your advice as well as your
example? Why should I eat my heart out, and waste my life on an
empty love? You have told me to leave you; that you wish to see me
no more. Very well; _this_ time I will take you at your word. I
will leave you, and let the future prove who was right or wisest.
I--I will go away! I _will_ forget!"
"It is well," she says, her voice low and faint. "I deserve all you
have said, and more. I have only brought sorrow to you! Go away,
live your own life, forget me, and be happy again."
"Those are your last words?"
"Yes. My life is hard and sad enough; you would add to it shame and
misery and undying remorse, and call that a proof of--love. Forgive
me if I cannot see it in the same light as yourself."
"And I say you do not love me, and never did, or you would know----"
"Very well," she interrupts, "believe that. It is best that you
should."
"And I am to go now?" he says, sorrowful and hesitating. "If you
send me from you to-night, Lauraine, I will never come back.
Remember that."
Both of them are hurt and angry now, both beset with cruel pain, and
waging that terrible conflict with passionate love and wounded pride
that is at once so ill-judged, and resentful a thing.
Lauraine looks steadily away from the entreating, watchful eyes;
away, away to the far-off mountain range swept with faint grey
clouds, silvered by the clear moonlight and the haze of the shining
stars.
"If he only knew," she thinks, in the depths of her aching heart, "if
he only, only knew!"
But he does not know. To him she is only cold, calculating,
unloving. Right and pure he knows in her mode of loving and
thinking; but what man who loves as Keith loves can see right and
purity as they are?
"I have never asked you to come back," says Lauraine, faint and low,
"and be very sure I never will. I am sorry that you are angry with
me. Perhaps to-morrow you will be sorry too. But I know it is best."
"Good-bye then!"
She turns, and gives him her hand. He looks at her long, and the
blue eyes grow misty, the fire and anger die out. He bends suddenly
forward and touches her fingers with his lips. He does not speak
another word, only drops her hand and goes.
The echo of his footsteps dies away. The door closes with a heavy
sound. With a stifled sob Lauraine falls on her knees, and leans her
head against the low railings of the flower-covered balcony.
"Dear Heaven! how hard it is to do right!" she moans.
The wind stirs the pine boughs, and the stars shine calmly down.
They have seen so much of trouble, have heard so much despair, and to
them a human life is such a little space to sorrow in, or be glad.
CHAPTER XVI
Cry, O lover,
Love is over.
When Lady Etwynde comes back, she finds Lauraine lying cold and
insensible on the little balcony.
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