And yet, this goodness of a noble nature increased Lucien’s human
tendency to take himself as the centre of things. Do not all of us
say more or less, “_L’État, c’est moi!_” with Louis Quatorze? Lucien’s
mother and sister had concentrated all their tenderness on him, David
was his devoted friend; he was accustomed to see the three making every
effort for him in secret, and consequently he had all the faults of a
spoiled eldest son. The noble is eaten up with the egoism which their
unselfishness was fostering in Lucien; and Mme. de Bargeton was doing
her best to develop the same fault by inciting him to forget all that he
owed to his sister, and mother, and David. He was far from doing so
as yet; but was there not ground for the fear that as his sphere of
ambition widened, his whole thought perforce would be how he might
maintain himself in it?
When emotion had subsided, David had a suggestion to make. He thought
that Lucien’s poem, _Saint John in Patmos_, was possibly too biblical to
be read before an audience but little familiar with apocalyptic poetry.
Lucien, making his first appearance before the most exacting public in
the Charente, seemed to be nervous. David advised him to take André de
Chénier and substitute certain pleasure for a dubious delight. Lucien
was a perfect reader, the listeners would enjoy listening to him, and
his modesty would doubtless serve him well. Like most young people, the
pair were endowing the rest of the world with their own intelligence and
virtues; for if youth that has not yet gone astray is pitiless for the
sins of others, it is ready, on the other hand, to put a magnificent
faith in them. It is only, in fact, after a good deal of experience
of life that we recognize the truth of Raphael’s great saying--“To
comprehend is to equal.”
The power of appreciating poetry is rare, generally speaking, in France;
_esprit_ soon dries up the source of the sacred tears of ecstasy; nobody
cares to be at the trouble of deciphering the sublime, of plumbing the
depths to discover the infinite. Lucien was about to have his first
experience of the ignorance and indifference of worldlings. He went
round by way of the printing office for David’s volume of poetry.
The two lovers were left alone, and David had never felt more
embarrassed in his life. Countless terrors seized upon him; he half
wished, half feared that Eve would praise him; he longed to run away,
for even modesty is not exempt from coquetry. David was afraid to utter
a word that might seem to beg for thanks; everything that he could think
of put him in some false position, so he held his tongue and looked
guilty. Eve, guessing the agony of modesty, was enjoying the pause; but
when David twisted his hat as if he meant to go, she looked at him and
smiled.
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