Both the man and the woman sat watching her as she performed this little
ceremony. Dolly’s bed was on a sofa, carefully arranged with a cushion
and coverlet. Tiny laid the doll down, listened, made as if she heard a
little cry, bent over the mimic baby, soothing and quieting. Then she
turned round to the spectators, holding up a little finger. “Gone to
sleep,” said Tiny in a whisper. “Hush, hush--dolly not well, not twite
well--me go and ask nursie what she sinks.”
The child went out on tip-toe, making urgent little gesticulations that
the others might keep silence. There was a momentary hush; she had left
the door ajar, but Mr. Wradisley did not think of that. He looked with a
nervous glance at the doll on the sofa, which seemed to him like another
child laid there to watch.
“Mrs. Nugent,” he said at last, “you must know what I mean. I never
thought this great moment of my life would come thus, as if it were a
boy’s secret, to be kept from a child!--but you know; I have tried to
make it very clear. You are the only woman in the world--I want you to
be my wife.”
“Mr. Wradisley--God help me--I have tried to make another thing still
more clear, that I can never more be any one’s wife.”
She clasped her hands and looked at him as if it were she who was the
supplicant.
He, having delivered himself, became more calm; he regained his
confidence in himself.
“I am very much in earnest,” he said; “don’t think it is lightly said.
I have known since the first moment I saw you, but I have not yielded to
any impulse. It has grown into my whole being; I accept Tiny and
everything. I don’t offer you any other inducements, for you are above
them. You know a little what I am, but I will change my very nature to
please you. Be my wife.”
She rose up, the tears came in a flood to her eyes.
“Be content,” she said; “it is impossible, it is impossible. Don’t ask
me any more, oh, for God’s sake don’t ask me any more, neither you nor
any man. I would thank you if I could, but it is too dreadful. For the
love of heaven, let this be final and go away.”
“I cannot go away with such an answer. I have startled you, though I
hoped not to do so. You are agitated, you have some false notions, as
women have, of loving only once. Mrs. Nugent--”
She crossed the room precipitately in front of him as he approached
toward her, and closing the door, stood holding it with her hand.
“I could explain in a word,” she said, “but do not force me to
explain--it would be too hard; it is impossible, only understand that.
Here is my child coming back, who must not indeed hear this. I will give
you my hand and say farewell, and you will never think of me again.”
“That is the thing that is impossible,” he said.
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