He opened the gate for them, raising his hat and smiling as they came.
His face witnessed to the wonder worked on him. The colour showed clean,
purged of his taint. His eyes were candid and pure under brows smoothed
by sleep.
As they went in he stood for a moment in the open doorway and looked at
the view, admiring the river and the green valley and the bare upland
fields under the wood. He had always had (it was part of his rare
quality) a prodigious capacity for admiration.
“My God,” he said, “how beautiful the world is!”
He looked at Milly. “And all that isn’t a patch on my wife.”
He looked at her with tenderness and admiration, and the look was the
flower, the perfection of his sanity.
Milly drew in her breath with a little sound like a sob. Her joy was so
great that it was almost unbearable.
Then he looked at Agatha and admired the green gown she wore. “You don’t
know,” he said, “how exquisitely right you are.”
She smiled. She knew how exquisitely right _he_ was.
V
Night after night, she continued and without an effort. It was as easy
as drawing your breath; it was indeed the breath you drew. She found
that she had no longer to devote hours to Harding Powell, any more than
she gave hours to Rodney; she could do his business in moments, in
points of inappreciable time. It was as if from night to night the times
swung together and made one enduring timeless time. For the process
belonged to a region that was not of times or time.
She wasn’t afraid, then, of not giving enough time to it, but she _was_
afraid of omitting it altogether. She knew that every intermission would
be followed by a relapse, and Harding’s state did not admit of any
relapses.
Of course, if time _had_ counted, if the thing was measurable, she would
have been afraid of losing hold of Rodney Lanyon. She held him now by a
single slender thread, and the thread was Bella. She “worked” it
regularly now through Bella. He was bound to be all right as long as
Bella was; for his possibilities of suffering were thus cut off at their
source. Besides, it was the only way to preserve the purity of her
intention, the flawlessness of the crystal.
That was the blessedness of her attitude to Harding Powell. It was
passionless, impersonal. She wanted nothing of Harding Powell except to
help him, and to help Milly, dear little Milly. And never before had she
been given so complete, so overwhelming a sense of having helped. It was
nothing—unless it was a safeguard against vanity—that they didn’t know
it, that they persisted in thinking it was Milly’s plan that worked. Not
that that altogether accounted for it to Harding Powell. He said so at
last to Agatha.
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