Sea stories, American; Seafaring life -- Fiction; Short stories, American
"The story, coming brokenly, by fits and starts, achieved by its very
barrenness a certain grim intensity. The white light of his
extraordinary narrative revealed a background sombre and hard, against
which stood the drama of his ineffectual warfare, a play without hope
and without reward, saved from inanity only by the tremendous fervour of
his love. She had fled from New York without warning, it seems, fleeing
from life, from him, from the scene and memory, perhaps, of that one
day. He had a slight clue, but it took him half a year to find her.
When at last they met, she didn’t want him, didn’t need him, wouldn’t
have him. This was in San Francisco, where she went on the stage again,
and lived for over a year, successful, apparently happy, and growing
more beautiful every day. ’People talked about her, you know’ he told
me ’She became quite the rage. Such a little girl, with serious
eyes....’
She must have been clever, too, for she kept a good grip on herself.
Soon she married a man of twice her years with a considerable fortune,
and passed into another world. Bert had forsaken his profession, and
had gone into journalism; he could have done anything passably well.
One thing, however, he could not bring himself to do again, and that was
to enter society. He didn’t get on as a journalist—couldn’t put his
heart into the business of life. He told me that for a time he went
shabby and hungry. Once in a great while he would see her, perhaps in
passing, and they would have a few words together; but the occasions
became more and more infrequent.
"’Then she left her husband, in the whirlwind of a sensational scandal.
Bert missed only by the merest chance having to write about it for his
paper. He sought her out at once; she had gone to an hotel there in the
city, where she lived openly as the mistress of the other man. ’What
are you doing, Bert, hanging around this town?’ she had asked him point
blank ’I want to be near in case you need me, Helen’ he answered
humbly. She gazed at him with those eyes that, according to his
account, still retained their innocence—though it’s hard to believe they
hadn’t by then acquired a trace or two of calculation. ’It’s gone a
long way beyond that’ said she coldly ’I won’t need you again’ He
tried to take her hand. ’I can’t let you go thus, Helen!’ he cried
’Let me go? You sent me’ she told him.
"’What was the use?’ said he to me ’I thought of the old days—they
seemed old already; and when I looked at her, I couldn’t realize that
there had been any change. But it seemed pretty evident that she had
left off caring. So I left her—but I couldn’t go away’
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