In conclusion, I should like to give a few words of personal
testimony. It was in a time of deep spiritual need that the
thoughts I have above expressed were given me when alone in
inland China. I was painfully conscious that I was not living all
that I was trying to teach the Chinese. Struggling for victory,
too often I found myself defeated, until I asked myself whether I
ought not to cease to preach, and to retire from missionary work.
Fasting, prayer, meditation on the Word, all I could think of
seemed powerless to help me, when one afternoon, in the course of
my usual reading, I came to John 4. It had always been ancient
history to me, and as such loved and appreciated, but that
afternoon for the first time it became a present message to my
soul. No one could have been more thirsty, and I there and then
accepted the gracious invitation, and asked and received the
Living Water, believing from His own Word that my thirsty days
were all passed, not from any present feeling, but because of His
promise. That same evening I took, without reluctance, my usual
Bible-reading with the Chinese, and spoke freely, but without
being specially conscious of power. At breakfast the following
morning, however, I learned that one of my hearers had been
brought into such deep conviction of sin as to pass the night
sleeplessly; and from that time my ministry was owned of GOD as
it had not been for some time before.
Some months later I passed through a time of great trial and
sorrow; the death of a beloved child, the sending home of three
others, and the most trying time in China through which our
beloved Mission has ever passed, bringing innumerable
difficulties and perplexities; but it was also a time of deepened
spiritual joy and rest, and of experience that my SAVIOUR was
sufficient for every emergency. In Tientsin the Sisters of Mercy,
the French Priests, and Consul had been massacred, and in all our
inland stations there was excitement and peril. Almost daily I
had letters from some group of workers asking for guidance, and
wondering whether to stay or leave the station, as work for the
time being was impossible. I knew not what to advise, but in each
case, like Hezekiah, I spread the letters before the LORD, and
trusted Him to teach me how to reply to them. There was no
conscious revelation, but in every instance I was guided to reply
in the way that led to the best results, and I sent each letter
off in the joyful peace of knowing that I had asked and He had
granted the wisdom that is profitable to direct. Just at this
crisis my dear first wife had an attack of cholera, from which
she rallied with difficulty; a little one was born and only lived
a fortnight, a wet nurse not being procurable in that time of
excitement. But again the Living Water proved sufficient for her
and for me. The very evening after the funeral of the babe, my
precious wife had an attack of syncope, from which she did not
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