A bell smote in the court below. Its iron clapper dinned the fancies
out of Jehan's head, calling him to the menial realities of life. It
was the supper hour, and the men of the guard would be strenuously
inclined over the steaming pot, the wine-jar, and the twisting spit.
Jehan left his turret with the pathetic cynicism of an autumn twilight.
Little drudge that he was, he yet had the inward independence to
despise the folk who fed like swine, and terrorised him with pure
blatant barbarism. He could listen to their blasphemy, their ribald
songs, and breathe the moral garlic of their tongues with a disrelish
that never wavered. He had none of the innate impudence of youth.
Had he been of coarser fibre the men would soon have made a lewd
and insolent imp of him, but he was spared such a fate by a certain
spiritual instinct that recoiled from the vapouring brutality of it all.
There seemed more ribaldry abroad in the guard-room that night than was
customary even in so pious a place. The company, much like a pack of
hounds, hunted jest after jest from cover, and gave tongue royally with
a zest that would have been admirable in any other cause. Lamps swirled
ill-smelling smoke about the room. There was a lavish scattering of
armour along the benches, and the floor was dirtier than the floor of
any tavern.
Jehan's ears tingled as he went among the men, climbing over sprawling
legs, edging between stools and benches. The air reeked of mead, and
the miasma of loose talk rising from twenty throats. A woman's name was
tossed from tongue to tongue, bandied about with a familiar insolence
that made him blush for her like a brother. His heart burnt with the
bestial impudence, the sweat, the foul breath of it all. Yet before
these red-bearded faces, these vociferous mouths, he was a coward,
hating himself for his fear, hating the men for the sheer tyranny of
the flesh that awed him.
To hear in this den such things spoken of a woman, and of such a woman!
That she was true his quick instinct could aver in the very maw of the
world. There was the silver calm of the full moon in her face, and
she had for him the steadfastness, the incomprehensible eloquence, of
the stars. Were these men blind, that the staring grief, the divine
scorn, that had smitten him from the first with a vague awe, were
invisible to them? Their coarse cynicism was brutally incomprehensible
to Jehan. Having a soul, he could not see with the eyes of the sot or
the adulterer, nor had he learnt to mistrust the intelligence of his
own heart.
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