Where did charity begin? She no longer knew. She had meant to take Irma
the money Pauli had given her, that she might use it for those children
of their own blood. But no, it was for this, so clearly for this,
for beings whom she had never seen until that very instant and never
would again. She was saying to herself--aloud though she did not know
it--"Let them eat once." Then she accosted the woman who turned dull,
unexpectant eyes upon her, while the little boy who knew only hard,
cold, empty things clung tighter to his mother's damp skirts.
"Take this. Eat. Get warm for once before your time comes. Feed the
children," she cried hoarsely, her voice still thick with her anguish.
The woman's claw-like hand closed over the money. Some stammered words
of thanks, some muttered "Vergelt's Gott," fell on Frau Stacher's ears.
She turned hastily away. She couldn't bear to look even for a moment
longer into that hopeless face.
But she turned back after a few steps. The woman was walking almost
quickly away in the direction whence she had come. She knew, doubtless,
the miserable entrance to some very relative heaven where if she had
money she could get food, and if she had money she could get warm and
sit or perhaps even lie flat on something however hard,--out of the icy
drizzle of the streets....
Then suddenly Frau Stacher became tremblingly afraid that there, so
near the house, Irma, out on some little errand might have seen her.
And never, never could she have made Irma understand. She didn't
understand herself, only that it was something, however ill-considered,
that she had had to do, out of that sudden feeling of the oneness of
life....
But as she entered, there in the fading light Irma was unsuspectingly
taking some last stitches standing with her work held up close to the
window. She turned, not unexpectantly, as her sister-in-law entered;
blessings often flowed in through Corinne. She carried no parcel, but
it might so easily be that she would open her old black bag with its
uncertain clasp and say:
"See what Corinne has sent!"
But Frau Stacher, quite pale and spent said not a single word even of
greeting. She seemed to Irma very old and broken, quite different from
the smiling woman who had gone out a few hours before. She wondered
again in alarm if she were going to fall ill on her hands and need
taking care of? But for once she didn't say all this, nor do more than
frown when her sister-in-law dropped her wet umbrella on the floor.
When she did speak it was only to ask:
"Well, what did Corinne give you to eat today?"
VII
FANNY
_Allegro con fuoco_
The Viennese Waltz.
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