She felt like a storm-tossed little craft that has at last made port.
She hadn't thought it would be that way. It was, indeed, "just like
any other place, only much nicer."
"Fanny is making her toilette, I'm just getting her into her things,"
Maria continued easily.
"I'll be there in a minute, Tante Ilde, dear," called another welcoming
voice from the next room, then in quite a different tone:
"You old hag, you've forgotten to take that stitch in my sleeve."
"Coming, coming," called back Maria cheerfully and winked at Frau
Stacher, "She doesn't mean a thing. Just her little way," she whispered
admiringly; then aloud:
"If the dear lady will lay her things aside," and as Maria spoke she
proceeded to help her remove the old coat, peeling off the narrow
sleeves and pulling down the little woolen shawl that Frau Stacher wore
underneath; she then put her into a comfortable chair, a cushion at her
back, and with solicitous inquiries about her health, (Frau Stacher's
looks didn't please Maria) "now you just rest while I finish getting
Fanny ready," she ended with a pat of her fat hand on the thin shoulder.
"What are you talking about?" called her mistress, "Perhaps I'm not
going out."
Maria disappeared through the door and Frau Stacher heard her say
something about "stupid caprices."
Before the fine, even warmth of the porcelain stove Frau Stacher
forgot how chilly she had been in the street; and the deep armchair
with its soft cushion, how it engulfed yet sustained her! She was quite
happy and almost comfortable. She felt more at ease, more at home than
at any time since leaving Baden.
Over a card-table was spread a white cloth and on it a service for one.
She felt unreasonably disappointed;--if Fanny could have stayed. Once
in, it certainly was like any other place and truly it was nicer.
Her heart had beat a little thickly as she dragged herself up the
stairs with those leaden feet. Certain mysterious things you didn't
do the first time without a feeling ... but she saw herself often in
future coming quietly up those very steps. She would always let Maria
know first, though why she would let Maria know first, instead of just
ringing at the door, she didn't try to explain.
Plenty lay again about her, the dear, familiar forms of Fanny and
Maria were ready to minister to her. She breathed in, as deeply as
the constriction in her chest permitted, the warm comfort of it all,
plenty, affection, in a starving world of old, unwanted women in
garrets--in alcoves.
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