To return to their aunt Ilde. The first two years of the peace had not
been so bad. With some difficulty she got through and succeeded in
keeping that roof that showed such unmistakable signs of collapse from
falling about her head. Still in a small way she received them all on
New Year's Day of 1921. For the customary roast pork was substituted
a less expensive "Rindfleisch garniert" the classic boiled beef and
vegetables, and there had been an Apfelstrudel, delight of all
Viennese. Tradition maintained itself in a world now obviously composed
of wreckage. But Frau Stacher had had an uneasy feeling as she sat, for
what was indeed the last time, at the head of her table surrounded by
her nieces and nephews. A week later she found, quite suddenly, that
never again would she get anything from those Bohemian investments
handed down from her father, the revered von Berg. She made some
desperate, useless efforts, but she was always brought up round by the
fact, once so pleasant, now disastrous, that she was the widow of an
Austrian, and herself an Austrian. That sudden cleaving of things that
she had supposed indissoluble, opened a gaping void in front of her,
into which she was inevitably to fall. Behind her, far behind her lay
the shining, solid, comfortable years, like another person's life, when
she was Frau Kommerzienrath Stacher, born von Berg. That providential
"von" had incredibly embellished her life. There was, indeed, all the
difference in the world between being born a "von" or not a "von." She
had always regretted that her mother's somewhat hasty second marriage
to handsome Heinrich Bruckner, some years her junior, had not had the
more sustaining qualities of a "von,"--then all Heinie's children
too....
Now it appeared that nothing made any difference. Every landmark
was gone. Authority was gone. Gone beauty, reverence, faith. All
that warm, imperial lustre in which the middle classes had burnished
themselves, proud and content that such things were, had faded into the
night with Vienna's setting sun. Sweet things were gone not only out of
her life, but out of the nation's, leaving black misery, or a crushing
commercialism which, though it lent money, lent neither beauty nor
honor.
It was all symbolized to Frau Stacher in the ruin of her own life,
epitomized in the blank, useless loneliness of her downlyings and her
uprisings. Life, once dear life, had become quite simply a monster that
threatened to devour her and then spit her into the grave.
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