She had crowded their furniture, but uncosily, into the restricted
space. There were three sofas in the living room and various tables
besides the one they used for their meals. No books in Anna's home any
more than in Liesel's. A similar glass compartment above a somewhat
similar desk held an accumulation of bric-à-brac of purely family
interest. Two white and gilt cups bearing the words "dem lieben
Vater," "der lieben Mutter" that had been Hermine's first gifts to
her parents for their morning coffee; several solemn vases that on
various occasions the women had presented to each other, and in whose
narrow necks outraged flowers always wilted; a slab of wood with the
Castle of Salzburg painted on it against a blue background; a group
of carved wooden bears from Innsbruck and other souvenirs of the days
when they travelled. Some gay Dresden china figures in minuet postures
immediately struck the eye, that Pauli had given Anna when they were
first married, now extraordinarily out of keeping with the paralysis of
their conjugal life.
The sofa cushions were in dull linen, worked in dull colors and bore
the usual mottoes: "Nur ein viertel Stuendchen," "Traeume suess" and
the like.
The once too-bright pattern of the Brussels rug had faded into browns
and greys. The various chairs carried on their backs and arms their
ugly, witless, crocheted doilies.
Even over Tante Ilde's gay little brass-bound chest, containing dear
but unsalable odds and ends, Anna had thrown a brown cloth cover
worked sparsely in white and yellow daisies.
There was something dead about it all and about the two dull women the
expression of whose being it was.
To Pauli, gay, sparkling, eager, passionate Pauli, it was as pleasant
to visit his home as it would have been to visit the cemetery. In one
corner was the table on which, wrapped in a scarlet cloth, was Pauli's
zimbalon. It was the only thing in the dwelling that spoke of its
master. It was the bright flower on the grave, and too, he visited his
home not much oftener than he would have visited Anna had she been
lying in the Central Cemetery.
One of those stupid, fatal marriages. Anna had never understood
anything about it, either the making or the unmaking of it. But she
continued to love him with all the force of her poor being, and
accepted, because she had to, his now habitual absence.
Pauli's mother had been a Hungarian and in his bright Magyar way he had
long since put the dots on the "ies" of the conjugal situation: "Anna?
Dead since years. She ought to wear a bead wreath."
That sombre flame in her eyes that from time to time he was
unpleasantly aware of was, indeed, no more attractive to him than the
phosphorescence shining about something decayed.
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