Somewhat reproachfully the thought came to Irma that Tante Ilde did,
perhaps, bring a blessing into the house and that she, Irma, had
needlessly wiped away the look of happiness on her face. They all
knew that she adored Corinne. Why couldn't she have let her have her
pleasure, which was certainly not costing her, Irma, anything? And
she remembered how broken her look and voice had been as she told
about Carli the day before. Then repentantly almost, she thought that,
after all, Tante Ilde couldn't be comfortable in that little alcove,
though as she didn't know about the need of being alone, she couldn't
understand just how uncomfortable. Then she thought that she would not
ask her to draw back the curtains. She even fell to planning how when
Ferry went away she would put Gusl to sleep in the alcove and give the
little room to his aunt. Hermann had terrified her by saying that Gusl
ought not to sleep any longer with Ferry,--was it really as bad as
that? That was one of the things that made it a further nuisance having
Tante Ilde. Then suddenly with the whole wild strength of her being,
the strength of untamed generations living by the wild Plitvicer Lakes,
she thrust her arms out and would have burst the too-narrow walls of
that dwelling, made room, room, the way one had room there where she
was born--out of the terrible city.
* * * * *
Frau Stacher got out to find the sun shining on the slippery streets,
still covered, from the cold rain of the night, with a thin, glass-like
substance. She went cautiously, slowly along. From St. Stephen's
half-past eleven was sounding. She had plenty of time. Then she became
aware again of a new and evil discomfort that had made itself felt
from time to time that morning; not at all the usual undernourished,
discouraged feeling, but as if something inimical, foreign to her body,
had got into her circulation; unpleasant little shivers kept running
up and down her back. She was relieved, however, for the moment of the
weight of her penury. Corinne truly loved her. Corinne truly wanted
her to live. She knew _that_, knew it as she knew that she existed.
Corinne, lovely, loving Corinne. She could have sung a hymn to her.
She crossed the Revolutionsplatz. It was still a little too early to
go to the restaurant Zur Stadt Brunn where she was to meet Corinne
at noon,--and perhaps find herself alone in the restaurant with her
empty purse, if anything happened to prevent Corinne from coming. No,
she couldn't have borne any such "blamage." She was timid about so
many of the most usual things. She then crossed the Lobkowitz Place,
looking, for an unrelated instant, up at the Lobkowitz Palace--long the
French Embassy. She had once been used to read eagerly about Royalty
and the "First Society" going to receptions there, their titles, their
decorations, their gowns, and how their jewels shone in the great
marble ballroom;--now past, all past--both for them to do and for
her to enjoy.
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