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It was too late to inquire—I had swallowed it passively, and at once. A
tide of quiet thought now came gently caressing my brain; softer and
softer rose the flow, with tepid undulations smoother than balm. The
pain of weakness left my limbs, my muscles slept. I lost power to move;
but, losing at the same time wish, it was no privation. That kind bonne
placed a screen between me and the lamp; I saw her rise to do this, but
do not remember seeing her resume her place: in the interval between
the two acts, I “fell on sleep.”
At waking, lo! all was again changed. The light of high day surrounded
me; not, indeed, a warm, summer light, but the leaden gloom of raw and
blustering autumn. I felt sure now that I was in the pensionnat—sure by
the beating rain on the casement; sure by the “wuther” of wind amongst
trees, denoting a garden outside; sure by the chill, the whiteness, the
solitude, amidst which I lay. I say _whiteness_—for the dimity
curtains, dropped before a French bed, bounded my view.
I lifted them; I looked out. My eye, prepared to take in the range of a
long, large, and whitewashed chamber, blinked baffled, on encountering
the limited area of a small cabinet—a cabinet with sea-green walls;
also, instead of five wide and naked windows, there was one high
lattice, shaded with muslin festoons: instead of two dozen little
stands of painted wood, each holding a basin and an ewer, there was a
toilette-table dressed, like a lady for a ball, in a white robe over a
pink skirt; a polished and large glass crowned, and a pretty
pin-cushion frilled with lace, adorned it. This toilette, together with
a small, low, green and white chintz arm-chair, a washstand topped with
a marble slab, and supplied with utensils of pale-green ware,
sufficiently furnished the tiny chamber.
Reader; I felt alarmed! Why? you will ask. What was there in this
simple and somewhat pretty sleeping-closet to startle the most timid?
Merely this—These articles of furniture could not be real, solid
arm-chairs, looking-glasses, and washstands—they must be the ghosts of
such articles; or, if this were denied as too wild an hypothesis—and,
confounded as I was, I _did_ deny it—there remained but to conclude
that I had myself passed into an abnormal state of mind; in short, that
I was very ill and delirious: and even then, mine was the strangest
figment with which delirium had ever harassed a victim.
I knew—I was obliged to know—the green chintz of that little chair; the
little snug chair itself, the carved, shining-black, foliated frame of
that glass; the smooth, milky-green of the china vessels on the stand;
the very stand too, with its top of grey marble, splintered at one
corner;—all these I was compelled to recognise and to hail, as last
night I had, perforce, recognised and hailed the rosewood, the drapery,
the porcelain, of the drawing-room.
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