Voices; Birth-Marks; The Man and the Elephant — John Shaqi
Voices; Birth-Marks; The Man and the ElephantHolt, Mathew Joseph
History
Voices; Birth-Marks; The Man and the Elephant
Holt, Mathew Joseph
Kentucky -- Fiction; Kentucky -- History
She recalled, how five years before she had rejected Sandy Blair,
feeling his wooing an insult. Had done it because—he was ignorant—was
shiftless—no, but because she measured him by the Allen standard; and
since, looking for her Allen, had discouraged every man who had
attempted to make love to her.
And Sandy Blair—he had again come into her life. Strange, that now
whenever she thought of John, she should think of Sandy. “My books, the
creatures of this quiet nook, the trees, the creek, the mountains, God’s
altar for my prayers, these are my companions. John is my thought love,
with whom I enjoy a mystic union that will last through life—as long as
I am faithful. These are my interests, my life, other than teaching, and
form and fill it and keep it free from what might otherwise have made it
a weary materialism. These have transformed my very common, every-day
life, raised me above a dark loneliness to contentment and at rare
intervals into the company of the stars. Yet now the change threatens, I
do not understand, I seem to feel a slow suffocation of the soul
threatening me. Can it mean that—must I find some one to love? Must I
quit weaving the web of my life with that of a mystical love?”
She was just beginning to realize that while her mind spun with this
fantastic thread of life, another part of her being, the flesh, demanded
other company, and held another distaff and spun quite another thread.
She had yet to learn that a perfect love gives not only the mind but the
body. That without the giving of both, love ends in darkness; and that
to find happiness the two threads must be entwined and followed into the
light.
She did not comprehend why now, when she saw John’s face, which had
always been so distinct, it seemed gradually to fade and merge into
Sandy’s. Sandy as he looked, when several nights before he had sat and
played to her. She was vexed with herself—but even more with Sandy.
Young lady; you are about to have that experience which has come to
every woman since Eve. God’s plan is breaking from its chrysalis before
you. The slowly fading spirit of John is entering the lists in conflict
with Sandy’s materialism; it is the conflict of the intangible with the
tangible, the memories of yesterday with the hopes of tomorrow. You will
act as second for one or the other. Faithful in the start you may follow
behind the spirit; but if you follow the way of your sisters, and they
go the right way, you will end by wishing you were second to the man who
seeks to drive the wraith away. Mayhap you may shift your allegiance
early in the conflict—who knows? You do not, nor do I. Take care!
Beware! Your long dream of John may end by kissing Sandy.
“Nonsense.”
At this inopportune moment Sandy climbed upon the rock, saying:
“This shore is a nice place, may I set down.”
“You are welcome to the seat Mr. Blair, but you must excuse me, I was
just going to the house.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account