He was drawn to me, I think, because I was a _successful_ Reject--I was
just then becoming known as a surgeon. I sincerely believed that he
envied me.
At any rate, he was always ready to talk to me. In the early days I did
what I could to get him working, but he never really tried. He had only
the Arts, You see, and they never really appealed to him.
(There was a rustle of surprise among Them. The old man nodded.)
It is true. He never wanted to be an artist. He had too much need for
action in him, and he did not want to be a lonely man. But because of
the Rashes, he had no choice.
The Rashes, as You know, had very little talent. I don't know why.
Perhaps it was the precision, the methodicity with which they lived, or
perhaps--as we proudly claimed--the Rejects were Rejects because they
had talent. But the result was wonderfully just: the Rejects took over
the Arts and all other fields requiring talent. I myself had good hands;
I became a surgeon. Although I never once operated without a Rash by my
side, I was a notably successful surgeon.
It was a truly splendid thing. That is why I say it was a good world.
The Rash and Reject combined in society and made it whole. And one thing
more was in favor of the Reject: he was less precise, less logical, and
therefore more glamorous than the Rash. Hence Rejects always had plenty
of women, and Reject women did well with men.
But the Rash, in the end, had everything that really counted.
Well, there was only such work that a Reject could do. But none of it
fitted Wainer. He tried all the arts at one time or another before he
finally settled on music. In music there was something vast and
elemental; he saw that he could build. He began, and learned, but did
little actual work. In those beginning years, he could be found almost
always out by the Sound, or wandering among the cliffs across the River,
his huge hands fisted and groping for something to do, wondering,
wondering, why he was a Reject.
* * * * *
The first thing he wrote was the _Pavanne_, which came after his first
real love affair. I cannot remember the girl, but in a thousand years I
have not forgotten the music. It may surprise You to learn that the
_Pavanne_ was a commercial success. It surprised Wainer, too. The Rashes
were actually the public, and their taste was logical. Most of all they
liked Bach and Mozart, some Beethoven and Greene, but nothing emotional
and obscure. The _Pavanne_ was a success because it was a love piece,
wonderfully warm and gay and open. Wainer never repeated that success.
That was one of the few times I ever saw him with money. He received the
regular government fee and a nice sum in royalties, but not quite enough
for a trip into space, so he drank it all up. He was happy for a while.
He went back to the music clubs and stayed away from the beaches, but
when I asked him if he was working on anything else, he said no, he had
nothing else to write.
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