Religious communities -- Fiction; West (U.S.) -- Fiction
Beneath all his aimlessness and indifference, Everett held high ideals
of womanhood. He was a man who cherished chivalrous traditions, and when
his footsteps finally brought him back from the foot of the bluff to the
edge of the little lake, that now reflected a purple sky, he threw
himself upon the ground to think seriously of his intentions. It was
plain to him that the prophetess of Zanah never could belong wholly to
his world. The memory of his associations in New York and Newport made
him almost doubt his own identity. Visions of the fashionable and
frivolous women who were part of what is known as American society
presented themselves to him. He saw the gorgeous gowns and flashing
jewels of matrons and maids whom he knew. He recalled their rather
brilliant conversation. In his mind’s eye he pictured an autumn ball at
Tuxedo—he had just received a letter mentioning a great entertainment
that was to take place that very evening—and he tried to imagine how
Walda Kellar would appear as one of those whom the colony condemned.
There were girls belonging to the gayest circles of Eastern cities who
were pleased to call him friend, and yet he valued their favors as
nothing compared with the esteem that he coveted from the woman of
Zanah. In thinking of Walda he soothed his conscience by telling himself
that esteem was the word which described the interest he wished the girl
to feel for him. And then the thought came to him, insistently, that he
was playing the part of a contemptible egotist, and that he was secretly
longing to awaken in the heart of the prophetess of Zanah earthly love
that was forbidden to her.
It is a human trait to desire what is beyond one’s reach, and Everett
acknowledged to himself that part of the charm which the girl of the
colony cast upon him was due to her elusiveness and to her ignorance of
all that pertained to what were the every-day experiences of ordinary
women. She was the one woman that he might claim unsullied and untouched
by love for any other man, and yet with a sudden sensation of shame he
realized that he was presumptuous to feel himself entitled to a love
that would, indeed, be sent from heaven.
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