Wastralls: A NovelDawson Scott, C. A. (Catharine Amy)
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Wastralls: A Novel
Dawson Scott, C. A. (Catharine Amy)
Cornwall (England : County) -- Fiction; Farm life -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction
"A life for a life," he muttered, using a phrase with which he was
familiar, twisting a little its plain meaning. Sabina was taking from
him, not his life but the fullness thereof, she was leaving him the
vessel but leaving it irreparably damaged, like an old bucket through
the holes of which the grass may grow.
Byron’s eye rose to the gun suspended over the door. The feel of it
would be comforting. It was his only possession. Sabina’s money was
nothing to him, let it go with the rest but the old gun...
It seemed to him far away. Between him and it rose, like an insuperable
obstacle, the faces of the relatives. He saw in these faces always the
eyes, the eyes that had witnessed his humiliation. Behind them were the
brains that knew him now for what he was, a poor thing, futile,
impotent. If he could but reach the old gun he would take it and he
would go.
What an intolerable burden were the eyes!
Mrs. Tom, seeing Byron glance at the gun, hanging in its thongs over the
lintel, misread his mind. She had been anxiously on the watch but by
degrees had lost her fear that he was dangerous. To himself, perhaps,
but no longer to others. Gray’s marriage, presented as an accomplished
fact, had done its work. No longer a wild desire, she was only a loss
among others; but the sum total of these had been sufficient, Mrs. Tom
thought, to bring home to the unhappy man his sin. Conscious of guilt,
he might be driven to a further recklessness, might feel that, for such
as he, was only the one way out. Knowledge is responsibility and Mrs.
Tom was moved by her sense of justice to intervene. Byron should know
the truth, that truth which she had kept even from Tom, which she had
hidden in a fold of her mind, wrapping it up and putting it out of
sight.
"Leadville," she said, leaning forward between her husband and his
cousin and speaking without any premonition of the event she was
precipitating, "rest yer ’eart content. She never drinked that cocoa
that you meant for ’er to."
For a moment the burden of those intent eyes was lifted from Byron. The
people turned towards Mrs. Tom. What was she saying? What lay between
Byron and the woman whom only that afternoon they had committed to the
earth? "I took ’er life," the man had said, flinging their curiosity a
bone of fact. They were learning now that the bone had had meat on it.
"Never drinked it?" Byron did not evince any surprise at Mrs. Tom’s
knowledge, did not feel any. He was only conscious of his overwhelming
need to escape—to escape from the eyes. His mind seized on this new
fact, examining it with an anxious care. What was it to him? Would it
show him the way out?
"No, ’twas that ’eavy supper. Doctor said so and it was. I saved the
cocoa and ’tis out there in the jug."
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