Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Love stories; Mate selection -- Fiction
She stared a moment, without moving, and then left the sofa and came
slowly towards him. She was tall for her years. She laid her hand
on the arm of his chair and he took it. “You have seen me before,”
he said. She nodded. “Do you remember my taking you last night in
my arms?” It was his fancy that, for an answer, she faintly blushed.
He laid his hand on her head and smoothed away her thick disordered
hair. She submitted to his consoling touch with a plaintive
docility. He put his arm round her waist. An irresistible sense of
her childish sweetness, of her tender feminine promise, stole softly
into his pulses. A dozen caressing questions rose to his lips. Had
she been to school? Could she read and write? Was she musical? She
murmured her answers with gathering confidence. She had never been
to school; but her mother had taught her to read and write a little,
and to play a little. She said, almost with a smile, that she was
very backward. Lawrence felt the tears rising to his eyes; he felt
in his heart the tumult of a new emotion. Was it the inexpugnable
instinct of paternity? Was it the restless ghost of his buried hope?
He thought of his angry vow the night before to live only for himself
and turn the key on his heart. “From the lips of babes and
sucklings....”—he softly mused. Before twenty-four hours had
elapsed a child’s fingers were fumbling with the key. He felt
deliciously contradicted; he was after all but a lame egotist. Was
he to believe, then, that he could not live without love, and that he
must take it where he found it? His promise to Miss Morton seemed
still to vibrate in his heart. But there was love and love! He
could be a protector, a father, a brother. What was the child before
him but a tragic embodiment of the misery of isolation, a warning
from his own blank future? “God forbid!” he cried. And as he did
so, he drew her towards him and kissed her.
At this moment the landlord appeared with a scrap of paper, which he
had found in the room of the deceased; it being the only object which
gave a clew to his circumstances. He had evidently burned a mass of
papers just before his death, as the grate was filled with fresh
ashes. Roger read the note, which was scrawled in a hurried,
vehement hand, and ran as follows:—
“This is to say that I must—I must—I must! Starving, without a
friend in the world, and a reputation worse than worthless,—what can
I do? Life’s impossible. Try it yourself. As regards my
daughter,—anything, everything is cruel; but this is the shortest
way.”
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