Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Love stories; Mate selection -- Fiction
“Well, well?” Mrs. Keith was puzzled by her face.
“Isn’t it kind of him? To think he should have thought it necessary!
It was soon settled.”
“Settled, dearest? How?”
“Why—why—” And Nora began to smile the more resolutely, as her
imagination had taken alarm. “I declined.”
Mrs. Keith released her with a gesture almost tragical. “Declined?
Unhappy girl!” The words were charged with a righteous indignation
so unusual to the speaker that Nora’s conscience took the hint.
She turned very pale. “What have I done?” she asked, appealingly.
“Done, my dear? You have done a blind, cruel act! Look here.” And
Mrs. Keith having hastily ransacked a drawer, turned about with an
open letter. “Read that and repent.”
Nora took the letter; it was old and crumpled, the ink faded. She
glanced at the date,—that of her first school year. In a moment she
had read to the closing sentence. “It will be my own fault if I have
not a perfect wife.” In a moment more its heavy meaning overwhelmed
her; its vital spark flashed back over the interval of years. She
seemed to see Roger’s bent, stunned head in the street. Mrs. Keith
was frightened at her work. Nora dropped the letter and stood
staring, open-mouthed, pale as death, with her poor young face blank
with horror.
IX.
Nora frequently wondered in after years how that Sunday afternoon had
worked itself away; how, through the tumult of amazement and grief,
decision, illumination, action, had finally come. She had
disembarrassed herself of a vague attempt of Mrs. Keith’s towards
some compensatory caress, and making her way half blindly to her own
room, had sat down face to face with her trouble. Here, if ever, was
thunder from a clear sky. Her friend’s disclosure took time to swell
to its full magnitude; for an hour she sat, half stunned, seeming to
see it climb heaven-high and glare upon her like some monstrous
blighting sun. Then at last she broke into a cry and wept. Her
immense pain gushed and filtered through her heart, and passed out in
shuddering sobs. The whole face of things was hideously altered; a
sudden horror had sprung up in her innocent past, and it seemed to
fling forward a shadow which made the future a blank darkness. She
felt cruelly deluded and injured; the sense of suffered wrong
absorbed for the time the thought of wrong inflicted. She was too
weak for indignation, but she overflowed with delicate resentment.
That Roger, whom all these years she had fancied as simple as
charity, should have been as double as interest, should have played a
part and laid a train, that she had been living in darkness, on
illusion and lies, all this was an intolerable thing. And the worst
was that she had been cheated of the chance to be really loyal. Why
had he never told her that she wore a chain? Why, when he took her,
had he not drawn up his terms and made his bargain? She would have
kept the bargain to the letter; she would have taught herself to be
his wife.
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